Memories of a teenage girl

Alexis

Alexis and I were in the same school when I was in 8th grade, I had just gotten back from Europe and I got into this weird school that was behind my house, actually he was my first crush but just at the beginning of the school year. I always saw him like just another guy I went to school with, he was one of the popular guys at school but then he became one of the dorky ones, I really don't know why I guess he had problems with the cool guys, I didn't really talk to him that much actually I felt like we were never friends. I remember in the recess how I would sit with my friends and he would walk by with his bag of chips in one hand and his coke in the other, he was tall and very skinny to the point that he would look like a walking stick, he also used glasses he was just so weird, so when he walked by I would scream "hi" to him and he just ignored me and so it was for the rest of the year.
My best friend at the moment was having a 15 birthday party, a pool party, so we were helping her to kind of organized it, the party was going to be a week before the end of the school year so we were in the school benches with our best guy friend, Rogers, when his friends came over that means Alexis, James and Igor so we just started all talking and at the end there were just 4 of us left Alexis, James, Natasha and me and they said like "why don't we play what probability is there?" Which is a game were you say what probability is there that you kiss him? And you both have to say a number from 1 to 3 and if you say the same number you have to kiss the person just a dumb game to kiss people so me and my friend were like hell no we ain't playing that shit but they insisted they wanted to kiss us and I kind of teased him like saying yeah let's go kiss but of course I wasn't going to do it so I think that he just was left with the desire but I didn't want to kiss him at the moment so me and my friend we stood up and left. So finally the day of the party came, my friend had rented a pool house for her party in Atlixco so we just arrived and everything was good we were having fun and out of nothing they arrive Alexis, James and Rogers and they kind of weren't invited to the party just Rogers so we assumed he invited them but whatever they were funny so we didn't say anything and let them stay. Somehow my friend's mother had agreed to have alcohol in the party so we could drink whatever there was on the bar and besides her brother, who was 21 years old, had invited a bunch of his friends who brought beers and more alcohol. So to resume this let's just say I was the whole party with Alexis and we all had been drinking, I could clearly see he wanted to kiss me what can I say I was really a big teaser back then but I was still virgin lips so I wasn't sure of what I wanted and maybe i had made a little mistake saying things I shouldn't have for example I was going to sleep there and he wasn't and I convinced him to call his dad to ask him if he could stay to sleep there and his dad was like "no because you're going to do something stupid" so I told him "tell him you have a condom so there is no problem" and of course he misunderstood that. Later on the party when we were all in the pool and I had still being drinking so drunk me meet another guy way older than me, Pete, who I would be madly in love with for the next month, so I didn't want to be with Alexis anymore and actually he had said to me that he wanted something serious with me and I think I friend zoned him, besides since when did he wanted to be something with me it just seemed a little weird to me, he got mad after that and he broke a phone and let's just say that everybody made me feel bad for him so at the end we did kiss, it was my first kiss and even though it was horrible I don't regret it at all it was behind a car in the middle of the night in the dark with the person I had never imagined, he just went for it but it was my first kiss so I didn't really know what to do I just stood there letting him do the job.
So time passed summer vacations came then the school started and here we were again face to face and nothing had really changed except for the fact that he now had a girlfriend but whatever not like I cared, but I felt like there was always something between us, something that had to be sealed. In the first month of school various schools organized what is called •back to school• they are parties to kind of celebrate the fact that we are in school again, and Katie, one of my friends, decided to go to the Americano back to school with her friends from other school, so there she was doing herself, having fun all drunk and guess who she found, Alexis! Yeah, and he was also drunk af, so both of them were like "hey you at my school right? Do you wanna go make out?" So that's what happened they went to kiss in the darkness and Katie  just gave him a blowjob, because why not? And then on Monday of course everybody knew and she regretted it and she just didn't care about me and I don't know if I'm over reacting  but how would you feel like if your friend made out with your first kiss? Even though she knew you still kind of had a thing for him, but obviously I didn't told her anything about it but whatever, now she was the one who had a thing for him so I couldn't do anything with him or she would be mad at me so bye bye it was or wasn't it?
Soon he became one of my party friends with James and Rogers, in all the parties where we coincided we would always end up together, what wasn't exactly a good thing, an example of it could be Katie's  birthday, November 4th, I remember it as if it had happened just yesterday, around this dates in Puebla there were the Halloween parties, also organized by various schools, and exactly on Katie's  birthday there was a party so of course we went to that party the SAIO Halloween party. So yeah we were there having fun and guess who I found? Alexis!! Yeii so as good party friends we are we stick together, he gives me alcohol and I drink it and then things happen like pretending I'm drunk so Hannah, who was with us, can tell him to find someone for her so he can make out with me, so he went go find someone for her and then it was just the two of us thinking if we wanted to kiss each other, it wasn't an easy decision I mean if I did it Katie would be ass mad at me because all of her drama and pretending she still had a thing for him and on his side he had a girlfriend so it was hard, at the end nothing happened but I think both of us were left with the desire, as always.
Then there was another party one of the famous Pablo's parties at his house and of course I was going to go, so there was drunk me just chilling when my party friend arrived (and in case you haven't figured out who it was it was Alexis) so when I saw him I just started hanging out with him and I'm gonna quote what I said to him "don't leave me alone" and then all of the sudden I'm with someone else so I don't know about you but to me that sounds like leaving me alone so I said to him "for the record" and to me that meant like "so I tell you not to leave me alone and that's what you do" (or that's what I thought I had said) later on someone told me that what really happened was this me screaming to Alexis: "your lost *then also me kisses in front of Alexis with another boy" and you know what they say "the kids and the drunk people always say the truth" and that kind of meant I still had a thing for him but he was still with his girlfriend.
After that he got expelled out of school and I never saw him again...joke he just got expelled but I did see him after at a party and now he was single but I didn't really have a chance so I kind of forgot wanting to kiss him but later on the night in Mine (the club) he started bugging me about how our kiss hadn't been good enough and that I had always wanted to kiss him again and I was like no I'm not going to kiss you but at the end it happened a little kiss, his consolation kiss, that how we called it, and then nothing really happened I just went to kiss house after that and we kind of cuddled but nothing really happened and that's how far our little story has gotten to and all I really have to say about him is that he brings me some good memories and that he'll always be my first kiss but he's just that the guy that gave me my kiss.