admirer ༄ jeongcheol

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seungcheol

i started freaking out. jeonghan messaged me. i felt excited and happy at first, that he acknowledged my account, but scared at the same time. i found those pics through the internet, you have no idea how much his friends post on tumblr. but he probably thinks i'm a stalker.

none of my friends really knew that i ran a fan account of a boy that went to our school. but they definitely knew about the account.

the reason why i started the account was because, i wanted to make sure that jeonghan felt loved. i always see him looking so down at school and heard him say that he's nothing that special. but to me, i think he is special. he's so unaware that he's beautiful and special. it makes me sad that he thinks of himself that way. i probably sound like a crazy fan, but i admire him a lot. so that's why i started this account so maybe there's a chance that he would see it. but a lot of people started seeing my posts and wondering who he was. it's crazy that his beauty caught so many peoples  attention.

i checked the message that he had sent me and i instantly started smiling like crazy. he really appreciated my account. i feel like fangirling right now. but then he asked who i was and where i got those pictures from. oh god. how do i tell him? i could say i got them online but then he would ask how they were online. and i can't tell him who i am or else he would know who i am. i'm not a popular kid but i'm sure someone who's known at my school. how do i reply?

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angelicjeonghan hi! oh my god
angelicjeonghan i'm really sorry if you feel uncomfortable about the pictures. i can take them down.
1004yjh no it's fine
1004yjh i just wanna know where you got those pictures from. did you take them?

HE ACTUALLY REPLIED TO ME OH MY GOD

angelicjeonghan uh
angelicjeonghan i got them through your friends

damnit. i'm such a bad liar.

1004yjh oh-
1004yjh um ok
1004yjh but who are you tho

nonono he's asking again. i don't want him to know who i am. how. do. i. reply. someone. send. help.

angelicjeonghan  just someone who goes to your school
1004yjh i'm aware.

why did i have to say that he went to my school oh my god.

angelicjeonghan let's just say that i'm a girl who goes to your school. i'm in one of your classes
1004yjh but that doesn't-
1004yjh okay.

WHYDIDISAYTHATAHH. i'm seriously the worlds biggest dumb ass ever. but if i said that  i was a boy, he might think i'm weird. (A/N this is just for the book i don't think theres anything wrong with boys starting fan accounts pls dont take this seriously ok) and he won't think that it's me. but he probably thinks i'm a crazy weird fangirl who wants him to be my 'oppa' or something. but at least i can keep anonymous til i reveal myself.

sorry for the shitty chapters