admirer ༄ jeongcheol

三十三

seungcheol

i didn't want him to see my like this. why was he here? he should be in class.

"what happened to you? who did this to you?" he asked. "i-it's fine. i'm alright." i sniffed. "no you're not. you're bleeding!". "please tell me what happened! you're not ok." he exclaimed. "please i'm fine. you shouldn't be concerned about me. please don't worry about me i'm ok." i said.

"seungcheol i know you're not alright. i can see it through you. you're bleeding and you have bruises everywhere. what happened to you? who did this? why can't you tell me what happened to you? i'm really worried, cheol. please just tell me what happened." he exclaimed. i sighed. "some kid beat me up. i don't know why.". no. you do know why. because you're a disgusting fag who doesn't have a reason to even be here.

"i know you're lying, seungcheol. please just tell me the truth!". "i got beat up by someone. i don't know who." i sighed. "why? why would anyone do this?".

"because i'm just a disgusting fag who has no worth living here. i'm just some fucking scum who's better off dead! no one actually loves me. i don't deserve what i have. why am i even here?". i started sobbing.

"but i love you." he whispered.
"jeongh-". i was cut off by a warm presence on my lips. we were kissing. i felt my heart flutter for the first time. i've been wanting this to happen to happen for a long time.

he let go and cleared his throat. "choi seungcheol, you're so important to me. you do have a worth in this world. you made me feel so good about myself in such a long time and i wouldn't know what i would be doing without you. you made me feel real happiness for the first time. you made me realize i am important and i thank you so much for that. if it wasn't for you, i wouldn't know what to do. you're very special to me. you're such a nice, wonderful, and the most beautiful person i've ever met. and i love you so much for that." he started sobbing.

"i love you too."