The feelings surge through me like an electrical current, he walks away taking my heart with him. The way he made me feel is hard to explain. Wish I could put a bullet through my brain, wish I had the courage to jump in front of that train. He made me happy and made me believe that he loved me then he threw me to the curb, he built me up just to kick me down. Still when I see him my heart still pounds out of my chest, and its hard to catch my breath. Just the thought of him makes me want death. The way his arms used to wrap around me making me so happy. Just to think it hasn't even been a week. He avoids my eyes and I know it was lies. He never loved me he never meant to be with me forever. My heart shatters and tears stream down my cheeks. I get home and carve at my skin and swallow the pills. The life drains from me I finally can say I'm free from his torment.