I drink and drink.. I try to numb the pain. I am tempted to text you. I want to tell you I love you. The alcohol has fogged my mind. I have it typed ' I still love you.' I wish you could still read me. I miss telling you everything, but who cares honestly. I have alcohol and it works just as well. I'm tired of missing you, and I am tired of wishing you were mine. I just want to forget you. I want to not need you. To not miss you and not crave you. I have it typed 'I miss you'. I wish I could just leave you in the past and move on. Why must you invade my mind so much. Fuck your existence, but please don't leave. I love you. Damn it I love you.
