I can't anymore. I am just hiding away from my fears.
I am a guy with feelings that have been torn to shreds.. I am at the verge of tears.
I want to stay away from it all.
Why do I have to even try? So I can have another person suffer because of me?
I've hurt everybody. Not purposely... Never. In some way though.
Why am I even here. Why was I even born? Just to suffer the rest of my days? I have a life of nothingness... I am a shell of what I was.
I am just a empty fragment of space and time... All I do is suck the happiness out of others... This is why I want to hide.
This is why I find comfort in music. This is why I am always hidden in a mask called the internet.
If you ever see me with a smile, you will now that is fake. I have mastered it over the years.
I am to close to drugs, cutting, suicidal thoughts. I have gone to far, and just going farther.
I have never cut, done drugs, or attempted killing myself. But I have just gone to far.
I may not last 2 more years.
I just don't know any more........
