There “he” is, just standing. Garrett.
I don’t understand the reason why I became uneasy, it is unnerving. It is indeed the first time that I saw him since we broke up. It has been awhile but why does it feel like it is all coming back again? That day when he said it is over.
They say when you’re in pain; you shouldn’t keep it to yourself. Everyone thinks I should be crying, screaming, and doing exactly what most people do when they ended a relationship. I tried, however in my case, it isn’t. I didn’t shed a single tear nor weep. It isn’t something you can force too. Probably I thought that if I cry, it won’t make any difference. It won’t change the fact that he is gone. So the next best thing is to continue with my life as if nothing happened... My family and friends also considered not mentioning his name or anything about him without me asking for it. His existence was slowly fading in my world. I guess seeing him again, triggered things to resurface.
I’m not sure what to do, my heart is pounding louder I can hear it beat by beat. I’ve lost count and I don’t know how long we are both staring at each other. I guess hearing his name and seeing him are two entirely different things. I gasped for air but tried not to let anyone notice. I can only hold my breath off for a few seconds and I think I just exceeded my record if this is an underwater contest. No one spoke a word since everyone is trying to gauge the situation until Maxis broke the silence.
“Hey, how long have you been there?” Maxis said.
“Not too long. Does the offer still stand?” He replied.
Everyone looked at me but it is not really my choice to make. Well, I might have a say but why is he here? Did Sydney invite him or the others? No, she won’t do that – definitely not her! And others would have a consideration knowing I’ll be here or... Wait. Two weeks ago, I told them that I won’t be able to join this trip because of my recital. Apparently, it got moved. If one of them might have bumped into Garrett back then I guess that’s the reason why we’re all standing here like some ghost showed up.
“Hey you?” Sydney said, more like questioned.
“Happy Birthday!” he greeted Syd.
“H-hi! You’re here...?” Syd questioned then looked at me frozen in my place.
I don’t know what you call this whole thing but I do need someone to rescue me because I’m clueless what should I do next. She dragged me near to Janus’ car pretending she needed help to check if she has all things that she needed. We passed by her boyfriend and she glared at him, glare that demands for him to fix this.
With that, I think I now know who invited Garrett to join us. We’re now secluded but we can still hear their conversation asking how Garrett is and all that.
“I can still back out right?” I asked Sydney softly.
“Don’t be ridiculous! We saw him at the coffee shop and Janus told him about the trip. He invited him just for the sake of but we didn’t know he will show up.” She explained.
Well, they are still his friends and just because our relationship lasted, theirs should. I looked at Syd, I looked at them. Somehow, I know I am not handling this very well. I should say something but I can’t find the right words to say. I don’t want to sound awkward either, will I just plainly say hi or how are you? I was about to speak up but it appears like Garret is about to leave.
