One Step Closer

Chapter 1.

Chapter 1.

Friday June 6th 2014:

Holly's POV:

I can't even remember falling asleep last night. The last thing I remember is scrolling on my phone through tumblr reading all of these fan fictions people post. I had nothing else to do. So I thought that I would give them a try.

I've just woke up and my room is an absolute tip. All of my clothes are slung and piled everywhere. All of my text books down the side of my bed. I really do wonder about myself sometimes. How do I manage to live like this?

I've barely opened my eyes. I check my phone and i have so many notifications. Most of them are people telling me that new stories have been posted about me and I'm all over the tabloids again. I'm really getting sick of this. I haven't even been in this industry for long. I love what I do. I love and respect my fans. I just wish I didn't always get smothered and had a little privacy every once in a while.

I finally find the motivation to roll myself out of bed and stand up. I stare blankly at my body in the full length mirror. I feel so insecure. I used to be so toned and skinny. I always see those tall skinny girls. I wish i could look like them. They always look perfect. I'm 5.4 and I look chubby in anything i wear. I hate being so short. I would do anything to change myself. Sitting in the house hiding from the paps and constantly lounging around has done me absolutely no good. I must have gained about 5 pounds in the past week, thanks to my slow metabolism.

I put on some fresh underwear. I then slip on a pair of old medium blue denim skinny jeans and a white baggy top. I put a small amount of mascara on trying to make myself look more alive. I then attempted to brush all of the knots out of my hair. I then walked to the bathroom opposite my room to brush my teeth and then went down stairs.

I walked into the kitchen to see all of the girls up and ready. They're all sitting around the table.

"Morning sleepy head" Jodie said happily.

I groan and made some cereal. Then I walked over to join the girls and sat with my head on my hand eating slowly with barely any energy.

"So you shagged Mr Thompson yet?" Sophie said whilst laughing. All of the other girls giggled.

"No" I grunted and gave her a dirty look.

All of the girls kept on laughing and I really was not in the mood.

"Just fucking leave me alone" I said whilst staring into my bowl.

Jasmine looked at me and scowled "what's wrong with you today?".

"Just fuck off" I screamed and dropped my spoon.

They all looked at me in shock. I don't think they realised how much they were actually winding me up.

They all got up to leave. Jodie walked up to me and said "you know what you've really changed since you've been famous, get your feet back on the ground Hol"

I looked away and didn't answer her.

I sat there for about ten minutes crying. I had so many thoughts running through my head.

I had a lecture to get to so I had to leave.

I put on some sun glasses and a hat so that I was less recognisable.

I walked the long way to Uni as I really wasn't in the mood to be spotted by fans and get crowded.

As usual two fans did spot me and ran up to me asking for a picture. I got a few pictures with them and signed a couple of things. I asked them not to mention to anyone I was here. They agreed and happily walked off.

I carried on walking. I looked around at all of the tree's. The sun was shining on my face. I had my earphones in, with my music turned up to full volume.

All I want is for some wonderful man to come and sweep me off of my feet and bring me some happiness and excitement.

I finally got into uni almost running late for my lecture but I was just in time. I walked In and Mr Thompson was teaching. At least I had something to keep my eyes occupied.

I walked in and seen Payton. She smiled at me. I was so confused. I thought that everyone was in a mood with me but obviously not.

I went and sat next to James. He is one of my best friends. I can tell him anything, I trust him so much. He always helps me with my problems. I'm almost certain that he's gay. Straight guys always tend to be abit more clueless. James seems to understand all the time. He always gives me the perfect advice.

The lecture was so boring there wasn't even any point. We were told what production we are performing next. Even though I've already made it in the film industry, I like to go to uni to learn even more and to try and keep my feet on the ground and keep my sanity.

Finally the lecture was over. I gave Mr Thompson one more glance before I left.

"You know he will never go for you right?"

James said in a laughing tone.

"That's not true. He secretly wants me" I replied.

"Right. He's a teacher and you're one of his students, it's completely illegal" He said with his hand over his eyes whilst laughing at me.

"So what if it's illegal. Nobody else has to know about it do they?"

He just laughed at me and we carried on walking to lunch.

We both got lunch and sat on a table. I completely blanked the girls and didn't sit with them, it would be too awkward.

"So what's your plans for the weekend then?" James asked.

"Well tonight I'm going to some party I got invited to. I got me and the girls all on the guest list. There's supposed to be loads of other celebrities going so hopefully it will take the concentration off of me for once" I said in a moody tone.

"Ah right okay" He laughed.

"Then on Saturday I am being dragged to a One Direction concert by the girls" I said rolling my eyes.

"Oh right, I thought that you were a fan?" He laughed.

"I am but I'm not as bothered as the rest of the girls. Jasmine cries every time she even see's a picture of Niall" I said laughing.

"Good luck" He replied.

Later on I was in the library working on our next assignment and researching the play that we were doing. Payton had just walked in and spotted me. So she walked over and sat next to me.

"Hol what's been wrong with you lately?" She said in her soft comforting tone that she always uses when she's trying to get something out of me.

"Nothing. I'm just fed up of having no privacy anymore. I just want to be able to go out with some friends without being accused of doing drugs or being a bad example, you know?"

She looks at me and presses her lips together trying to think of what to say.

"You know me and the girls are here for you. We're all worried about you Holly" She said with her voice getting louder.

"I know. I don't mean it. Everything will be sorted soon. We just need a good night out" I said assuringly.

She smiled at me and gave me a hug. It's nice to have someone who understands me.

Authors Note.

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-Ally