Secrets & Whispers

One Tear

If I cried it was rare even to me

I never shaded a tear

Maybe one yet only one tear

But if I cried a river

It either mend I love you

Or my walls are broken

I put on an armor so strong

So bold so still

That it keeps my many

Tears

Shouts

Secrets

Drought's

Love

Hate

I keep so many emotion in that i pop

I don't know what keeps me strong

I don't know what my sunshine is

I don't know why someone out their

Would want me to be so strong were

I can't even cry

Was I put here to be strong to not be weak

Yet it make me inhuman

And cruel

It shows I have no weakness

I can't harm myself

I can't even die

Even if i'm meant to be dead

Somehow I swim when I'm to drown

I can't hold a grudge

I can't even keep up with a promise to myself

Yet I can help someone

When I barley an expert myself

My eyes may water yet only a single tears drop

Not even twice

But only once

I'm Strong

Yet I'm inhumanly

For humans can cry

Humans can show pain

Humans can do

Humans can feel

Yet all I do is Act

I put on an act

To feel normal

Yet what is that

I remember now

Who my sunshine is and always was

Lizzie Ann Lyles

A sunshine to all

My Great-Grandma and the only one I knew

She's my mother

When mine was to busy to care who I was

She knew me better than anyone else

My own mother lies when she says she knows me

At her funeral

Is the only time I remember crying

More than once

More than Twice

But only buckets

Now I can't even feel a need to cry

But only once every year

Just one tear