NEW Campus Crush (boyxboy)

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I dreaded walking into Psychology class on Monday morning. Thankfully, today was exam day, so I wouldn't have to look at David for an hour.

I paced down the aisle to the front row where I usually sat. Ava was already there, beckoning me over with a wave of her hand.

I knew I'd regret it, but I looked toward the front of the room. Like magnets, my eyes locked with David's. Just being in his vicinity made me weak. I couldn't tell at first, but he looked like he was holding himself together by a thread.

Good. So was I.

I turned around and found a seat near the back of the room, but I didn't forget that my platinum hair made it impossible to blend in.

We started our tests a few minutes later, and I knew most of the questions. Some students were quick to take it and leave, but I was too distracted to be swift. In fact, I ended up being one of three students left, and I didn't realize it until our T.A. announced how much time we had.

"Ten minutes left, guys," she said as she strolled down the aisles, observing us with her hands clasped behind her back.

Damn.

I was starting to think that not having so-called friends was a blessing in disguise. I used to be a sharper thinker when I didn't have them to worry about.

The last couple students gave up and turned their tests in, and both left. I knew David was gazing at me, and he definitely had to think it was no coincidence I was last.

Maybe it wasn't. Maybe it was my subconscious keeping me here.

I bubbled in my last answer and stood up, throwing on my back pack. I walked all the way down the aisle and placed my test and scantron on the table. David, who was standing right on the opposite side, made eye contact with me as I did so. He broke the gaze to straighten up the tests before turning to his T.A.

"Maddie, take these to my office, please? I'll be there in a minute." He handed her the stack of tests along with the keys to his office. She took them from him and left the theater room.

It was eerily silent. I asked myself why I was still standing there, waiting to get my heart broken all over again.

Just walk away, Casper. He wasn't worth it.

Except he was. I couldn't walk away, and he knew that. I chewed on my bottom lip, deciding to break the silence.

"I went to the party."

It seemed that was all he needed to hear to understand my mood. I could see the change in his expression— the sympathetic eyes, the guilty face.

"What happened?"

"Well, I didn't have fun like you said I would. And I knew I wouldn't, but it was either that or pine over you, so..." I shrugged.  "It was kinda going well at first. Then my roommate's ex boyfriend showed up, made fun of me, pressured me to smoke and drink. When I tried to bite back, he didn't take it well. He walked up to me like he was gonna hit me, and I moved back... fell into the pool. And Ava was like this thick cloud of PTSD hanging over me while everyone laughed."

David shut his eyes in remorse. "Oh God, Casper..." He stepped closer, shock etched in his features. I could tell he wanted to hold me, but he was unsure.

"Doesn't matter now. I mostly just wanted to tell you that I've had a bit of clarity since then." A lie. "Actually, you were right to end things." Double lie. I stared at the ground. "I'm planning to withdraw from this class."