Promise's▶Hayes Grier

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Relapse. Congratulations its a.........
*Cameron's P.OV*
"Its a girl!" The doctor happily stated. I'm having a little girl. I can be there for her first words. Her first day of preschool. Her first boyfriend, her first formal, and the day she walks down the isle. I could never be there for fin because of Maeve, she wouldn't let me see fin, and her boyfriend would kick my ass if I tried. But recently she got dumped, and now no ones here to stop me. I was never there during the pregnancy because she never told me until 1 year after he was born, and for me to be experiencing this, really means a lot. I could feel the tears suddenly forming in my eyes. A tear slipped down my check without recognition. I couldn't do it though. It's not that I didn't want this, because I do, but something inside me feels wrong. I walked out of the hospital room with warm tears spilling down my face. I sat in the chair outside of the rooms and burry my face into my hands. I want to be here for Nia and OUR child but I know there can not be a relationship without any feelings. So without a relationship it will be harder for me to see my daughter and keep tabs. Just fall in love with her cam, its not that hard.  Just love her. Those very words pursued to repeat in my head constantly causing me to wince each time at the thought of pretending to "love" her. She doesn't deserve that. But I need to be around our child. My thoughts were interrupted by the faint sound of the squeaky door being opened. "Cam- " Nia continued while gently laying a hand on my shoulder. "Are you OK?" She said softly. "Yea- its nothing really, kinda just overwhelming I guess but I'm fine, really. I'm gonna be here for you and OUR child no matter what it takes" I said suddenly bursting into tears. I gripped the sides of Nia's shirt and rested my forehead on her stomach and just cried. Nia held my head and rubbed my back in attempt to make me feel better. Something about her. She's the girl who is there for everyone but herself, and puts everyone and their needs before hers. She's loving and nurturing, she's gentle. She is gonna make the perfect mother.