Drowning In Reality (On Hold)

I'm Alone

You're useless! No one cares! You're a disgrace! You're a failure! Why are you still here!? Why should I care? You look like a mess! You're so stupid!

Their words are like bullets, they pierce my vulnerable flesh and destroy my insides.

Their punches are like nuclear bombs, crumbling me more and more as time passes by.

Their glares are like knives, slowly digging further and deeper into my skin.

And worst of all, their lies are like a disease, slowly spreading to all and killing me from the inside.

This is my life. My dark, long, inhumane life. No one cares. No one listens. No one helps. I don't understand why this happens to me... but it does.

I continue to walk down the school's main hall.

The hall of my nightmares.

The hall from hell.

I can hear their whispers, their lies. I can't remember a life without this, without their harsh words and rumours. I can't remember a time when I wasn't alone, you don't know true loneliness until your me, until you are only seen by judgmental eyes and only wanted as a punching bag for the twisted. I'm broken, I'm cold, I'm scared... But who cares? Not you right? No one does. I don't want to be like this... but I am.

"I heard she tried to push Maddie in front of a bus!"

"OMG really!?"

"Yeah, Maddie said it was terrifying!"

"Wow, Jasmine really is a monster."

Lies.

"She's been seen sneaking around lately."

"Do you think she killed some one?"

"Probably, she's horrible."

Lies.

"She's so ugly!"

"I know right! No one will ever love her!"

"Yeah! She'll be alone for life!"

"Hahahahahahaha!!"

...

Why? Why me!? Why does it have to be me!? Why is it always me!? It's not fair. Many see my school as a great, bright, happy place, it's not. It's dark and cold and horrible! Sometimes, I wish I was dead, sometimes I wish everyone else was dead, and sometimes I feel... nothing.