The Promise

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Blinking red lights appeared, wailing sounds. I could tell it was an ambulance, and I was in it. I could feel drops of water on my hand, and hear sobbing noises. Wundering who I was, and where I'm going to, all I wanted was to fall asleep: so I did. Lights. I could see lights. My body poked with needles, liquid hanging. Then I remembered. What I did, attempted suicide.

A YEAR BEFORE...
I'm sitting on my bed as usual, thinking about my life. Got out of bed, went straight to the T.v as usual. I really miss my boyfriend, we've been together for almost 2 years now. My best friend which I practically call my sister, is named Tawi. During winter her dad passed away, no one knew what the reason was, they just saw him dead on his bed. Those two people are whom I love very much, maybe more than my own existence. I was hoping I could see him today, on Thursday. His name is Sol: very handsome, but denies it. Understanding. Very understanding, I forget all my problems whenever I'm with him. One thing that I'm afraid of is him leaving me as my best friend. Tawi and I knew each other for almost 7 years now. In the beginning, I hated her. Which I don't know the reason for.

"Luna!" yelled my sister. My name is Luna, it means "Moon" in spanish. I got ready to go to my friends, as always. The moment I stepped out, the bright sun blinded my eyes. Then it shocked, I had a panic attack. After 2 minutes it went away, I've had panic attacks for 3 years. And depression, which is very stressing. I read that you are likely to have depression if you had an abusive childhood, and stress. I attempted suicide many times but never pulled it off, I've always thought my life was meaningless. As you know my relationship with Sol is actually on and off, I would would cry almost every night when he left for the first time. I thought he would never come back but he did after 6 months of me not giving up on him. During those two months it was really hard, because Sol started liking Tawi. Seeing his texts with her just really hit me, the way he texted her was way different than the way he texted me. Today is Thursday the 6th, 2016 of October, I saw him again today. Meaning to ask him the big question.

"What are we?" I whispered in his ear. He chuckled.

"Boyfriend, and girlfriend.." He responded.

"Do you love me, then?" I mumbled, as my heart raced, and sweat on my palm.

"Yeah I do, I love you." He said, the world stopped the exact moment he told me, looked into my eyes, as he put his hands on my hot cheeks. That was his first time saying it, maybe telling me also. We laughed, maybe I thought, maybe he's the one. I stayed in his arms, wanted this moment to last forever but I knew I had to get back.
I soon started realizing Tawi was slipping away, maybe towards her new friends at school. I saw her differently: Her movement, her tone, her attitude. The best friend I thought I knew soon disappeared, every time we would hang out I would see her glance at the phone several times. Could see my name vanish from her bio on Instagram, I slowly started to miss her and what we had. I remembered during the summer, we would laugh as if we were the only ones that could be happy. Each day I would sit and think about how it has now changed, how everything is totally different. One day I told her how I felt, not knowing she would block me. Then it hit me; she is not who I know anymore, completely changed, I thought. Warm tears rolled down, then came a bunch. I started weeping. Pink eyes. Weeks past by, the teenagers in my community planned on going to see the lights, I got really excited. When it got to the moment of going my brother decided to ruin it for his selfish reason. I was devastated. At the last minute we told my mom we're gonna go, she didn't say anything and hung up. So we just went, my boyfriend went too. Our first destination was the buffet, I sat next to him, later got mad because of his stupid action. When everyone got outside, I told him I was mad but he didn't hear so. When we got to our second destination, 20 minute after I went up to him and wrapped my arms around him.

No one really knew that we were together, until that day when I put his hand in his coat pocket. As I did, he hold my hand inside the pocket. Everyone behind us saw, I rested my head on his shoulder. I looked at the Christmas lights shimmering brightly, it caught my attention because of it's beautiful color. Two of the other couple that was with us took pictures, I wanted to also but he didn't.

"I'm so cold." I whispered to him, while shivering.