Unspoken Feelings

First Entry

Feeling giving up to a man who can not return your love? Enjoy this one.

To you, my sweetdream
But now became my nightmare.
To you my love, my dearest
Where I learned the feeling of
Agony and bliss.

To you, you are the most gorgeous man
my eyes had ever seen.
The most perfect, timeless, remote.
You are beautiful the way an angel is beautiful.
And I just loved the every inch of you.

Your eyes was my own amber.
My shade of gold,
My shade of silver.
But now, my shade of gray.
My shade of pain.

Your lips was just so tempting
That speaks so lovely,
perfect harmony, so serene
That speaks only to the girl...
That wasn't me.

To you, your existence alone
Is my refuge, my asylum
A solace
That comforts the beasts inside me
My greatest distress

Oh how beauteous your name was
How can it tame the demons that suffocates me
But I don't have the honor
To say your name..
Just a murmor, carried by the wind

Ah, my felicity oh dearest
My euphoria.
You were like a star in the sky
So high, that I couldn't reach
So high, that I could only dream.
Why can't I have you?

Oh dearest, you are my dream
My loved one.
My silhouette of future.
But just a mere product of my fantasy.

I dream, I hope, I pray
That someday the pain in my heart
Will leave a hole, a bottomless hole
and the hole it dug, will be replenish
by the man that was fated for me
And be a perfect space for a beautiful garden.

Ah my love I don't give up.
I grew tired..
Waiting, waiting that you will lay your eyes on me
But you didn't
I grew tired.

I know I know I became ambitious
I dreamt too high
Sorry, my apology for loving you
Pardon me for assuming too much

So now, I'll keep my distance
Just say 'I love you' when you're not listening
Just loving you in discord
Or let it die and take me away.

Our love that doesn't bloom flowers
Thus cannot dream of bearing fruits.
Our love like a seed that is forgotten
Yes, it's unrequited love.

Alas, now I swear this time I mean it
Farewell my fairest one
Farewell my love.
Farewell my happy sunshine
Adieu

I want to wake up.
I want to wake up.
But this ain't a dream...
This is the reality,
I can't have you.
I would never have you.
— KM, To the man I cannot have. #