•X-Kid• [COMPLETED]

¡Tré!

Billie's P.O.V:
After a lot of crying and yelling at the top of my lungs, Tré and the others finally got me to come backstage with them.

I was still cradling what was left of Blue to my chest as I sat on the floor.

Tré immediately sat next to me and I snuggled against his side.

Mike walked past us and I could've sworn that I heard a low, jealous growl escape his lips. However I just shook the feeling off for now as I couldn't be sure of what I just heard.

"Shhh..." Tré whispered soothingly in my ear. "It's ok Billie..." he continued in a soft voice. "We will fix Blue. I promise."

Jason sat on my other side and gently rubbed my back. I whimpered and looked up at him.

"Jace?" I whispered cautiously.

"Yeah Bill?" He whispered back.

"I-I'm so-sorry for wh-what I-I-I d-did earlier... I di-didn't m-mean to h-hit yo-you...!"

"C'mere Billie..." Jason whispered, holding his arms out for me.

I immediately threw my arms around his neck and cried against his chest.

"Oh Billie..." he whispered softly, gently rubbing my back. "I forgave you a long time ago buddy. I know that you didn't mean to hit me."

I looked up at him and he smiled reassuringly at me.

"And one more thing, I promise that I'll find a way to fix Blue. I know how much he means to you and I will do everything in my power to fix him."

"Th-thank you Jace..." I whimpered, once again hugging him as tightly as I could.

"No problem buddy. I'd do anything for one of my friends."

Tré smiled a little and got up, going over the couch and sitting down.

After a while Jason slowly pulled away from me and sat next to Tré on the couch. I stayed on the floor and rested my chin on my knees.

Suddenly, Mike cane and sat down next to me. I shivered with fear and slowly moved away from him. I didn't want him to hurt me again... I didn't like it when people hurt me...

"Billie..." Mike whispered, reaching his hand out to me and gently putting it on my cheek. I flinched away from him.

"Go away..." I whimpered quietly.

"Please Billie..." he whispered. "Please talk to me... I'm so sorry for hurting you... I'm so, so sorry..."

I looked up at him with sad eyes.

He looked back at me with equally sad eyes.

"Oh Billie..." he whispered, putting a hand on my cheek. I couldn't help but lean into his hand.

"I'm so sorry..." he continued and gently rubbed his thumb over my cheek.

I flinched away from him and retreated into the furthest corner of the room. I didn't want to live anymore... that much was certain...

That's it. I had made up my mind. I was going to kill myself. Tonight.

I didn't care what the others thought of me anymore. None of them truly cared for me anyway... I mean, sure, they all said that they'd do anything for me, that they'd always be there for me... but I knew it was fake... it always had been and it always would be...

My eyes searched around for a pen and piece of paper. I noticed that everyone had left the room...

See? What did I tell you? They were all a bunch of assholes...

I eventually found a pen, along with some paper. I then scribbled a quick note:

Dear Mike, Tré, Jason, Jason, and Jeff,
I know you never cared about me... I know now that it was all fake... so, guess what? You finally got your wish. I'm going to kill myself... don't try and stop me, because by the time one of you reads this, it will probably be too late...

I'm sorry guys, but I can't live like this anymore... I can't live with the pain... the guilt... I'm sorry... but this is goodbye...
Rage and Love,
-Beej

Tears streamed down my cheeks as I folded up the note and placed it beside Mike's bass. I wanted him to be the first one to read the note.

I'd never told anyone this before... but... I loved Mike... I loved him with all my heart... he was my everything, the only reason I'd stayed alive this long... when he'd hit me earlier, my heart completely shattered. Mike hated me... there was no reason for me to live anymore...

Now it was time for me to go onto the roof... I quickly made my way onto the roof and slowly, and I mean painfully slowly, made my way to the ledge.

I looked over it at the ground below me and smiled to myself. I would finally be happy soon...

"I'm sorry Mike, Tré, Jason, Jason and Jeff... but I can't do this anymore. I can't live with the guilt, the pain... I'm sorry, but this is goodbye...
here goes nothing..."

And then I jumped, feeling my spirit leave me as I hit the floor...