Time After Time

At This Moment - Chapter 1

This is my first Gilmore Girls fic.  I'm terrified, nervous, and excited.  I was so upset at the ending of AYITL that i felt compelled to write.  Hope you enjoy but let me know either way.

My favorite quotes about writing is - 2 AM and I'm still awake, writing a song If I get it all down on paper, it's no longer inside of me, Threatening the life it belongs to

All chapters will be named after songs i love that remind me of Rogan.  Thanks for taking the time read!!!

Disclaimer - I own nothing but the thoughts in my head.

Chapter 1 – At This Moment

What did you think
I would do at this moment
When you're standing before me
With tears in your eyes
Trying to tell me that you
Have found you another
And you just don't love me no more

And what did you think
I would say at this moment
When I'm faced with the knowledge
That you just don't love me
Did you think I would curse you
Or say things to hurt you
'Cause you just don't love me no more

The air was warming and the sun was heavy in the sky and the sights and sounds of Yale at the beginning of summer lent to some amazing views. The skies were blue and the tress full of leaves that spring added to the desolate branches, and the sounds of the graduating class of 2007. Logan stood aside while Rory celebrated with her family. It was time that he knew Lorelei was incredible excited for. Her baby girl graduating, and Christopher actually showed up which was a suprise, not to mention Emily and Richard. They were so full of pride at watching their only granddaughter walk across that stage at Richards's alma mater. Truth be told though all he wanted to do was find out if Ace had an answer to that question he'd asked her.

He had wanted to make it romantic, for it to be something she'd never forget and while proposing in front of an entire audience of family and friends wasn't exactly the best proposal, the carriage ride he had prepared for after to take them to a cheesy romantic candle lit dinner was suppose to make up for it. However they never got to enjoy that dinner because Rory had wanted some time to think. It killed him to realize that she had to think about something that he felt as natural as breathing. Spending his life with her, for better or worse, it was the only thing he knew to be a truth in his life, his love for her and her family.

Logan watched the woman he loved walking towards him and in that instant he knew. He hope he was wrong, but deep inside he'd known since she had asked for time, that he wasn't going to be enough for her. "Hey, congratulations" he said as she stood before him.

"Thanks." She responded.

"Hey you did great. No tripping, no dropping the diploma. I remember when I graduated, I was a bit tipsy, no surprise there huh," He was babbling and he heard himself but was unable to stop the words from coming out of his mouth because he knew once he did she'd say no. He continued, "I did trip and I reached out and grabbed the robe of Marsha Hadley who was so not the person to grab..."

"Logan..." Shit. He tried not to panic, but the words he had fear were about to said out loud, by the only women he had ever loved.

Did you think I could hate you
Or raise my hands to you
Now, come on, you know me too well
How could I hurt you
When darlin' I love you
And you know, I'd would never,
No, no, no, no

What do you think
I would give at this moment
If you'd stay, I'd subtract
Twenty years from my life
I'd fall down on my knees
I'd kiss the ground that you walk on
If I could just hold you again

"I'm sorry. I can't. I love you. You know how much I Love you. I love the idea of being married to you, but there are just a lot of things right now in my life that are undecided, and that use to scare me but now I kind of like the idea that it's just all kind of wide open, and if I married you it just wouldn't be."