When will you notice me... Senpia???

The meaning of life

It was a cloudless day and it was so nice not to hear the word "YAN-CHAN" again! It was class and we were learning Biology. Some girls were gossiping about a person. I didn't know if the person was in the school or not I was just worried if they say mean things about MY SENPIA. I leaned in a little closer and heard them say. "Hey I heard Kokona was friends with that freak Ayano Aishi!" One girl said. "I know and she had a crush on that hot guy over there." Another girl said. I got raged but kept it inside. After class they were the last ones getting outta class so I told them to "Follow me." "Whatever freak girl but make it quick!" The girls giggled. I stayed calm and lead the way. "A empty field I didn't think you were that dumb!!" The girl said. I stabbed her in the neck and then I killed the other girls one was still alive being tortured so I decided to stab her in the chest!
The next class was poetry I was making a note for senpia! "Does anyone know what the meaning of life is??" The teacher said. "How 'bout you miss Kyoko you are a smart young lady please tell us." The teacher said.
Kyoko stood up and said. "I think the meaning of life is to give your life meaning!" She said.
Once I heard that sentence I looked up from my note for senpia I looked at her with my pitch black eyes. I kept thinking about what she said. "All this time I've been killing people but not trying to give my life meaning....." I thought.
I ran home as fast as I could! I was so mad at myself WHY would I kill people for one little guy to notice me?!!? I looked at my shrine..... I teared it down and the wall with all his pictures on it!! "I WILL STOP CALLING HIM SENPIA!!!!!!!! I WON'T EVEN SAY HIS NAME!!" I screamed to myself. Although I knew I had the biggest crush on him I couldn't stop loving him..........