Okay I fxcked up! I get it damn! Why every day & every chance you get I got to be reminded. Do I constantly throw stuff in your face? You ain't never been in a relationship where it's like damn I really fxcked up but this what I want so I gotta fix it ... just for every chance your other gets, they remind you that you ain't shit! I just wish things were done different. I wish but that's all. No fairy godmother around to make the pain go away. I've apologized 1000 times, put a ring on it, curved bxtches. Lesson learned, everybody ain't out to hurt to me & I shouldn't hurt those who really care. But with a mindset & a past like mines, it's hard to tell who's there for you & who's not. the saying is you made your bed now you gotta lie in it & I get it. I don't stress you about nothing, nothing at all. Basically free to do as you want because I fxcked up. But with that being said, marriage shouldn't be rushed. Once you married ain't no messing around. I plan to be only married ONCE. so either get it right or get left once those I do's are said. I get it, I absolutely get it. EVERY DAMN DAY. One day, just one day it'll be finally over & either we or me can look back while we smoking, drinking, laughing & having a good time & just be like ...... damn man. No matter WHAT, I always make sure we straight before we go to sleep. You just never know what could happen. Can't do the same in return ? Damn man.
