I confuse myselfBecause you see.
I always want to open up to people but every time i try i swear my body goes into shock and i can't even verbalize a sentence.
I immediately shut down
It's like something inside me is grabbing onto my emotions- holding them so tight
And my brain uses that to keep them safe.
Safe from what?
See I've opened up to people in the past but my brain has a sick way of making me think that I'm burdening them.
Like they don't want to hear it.
But then when someone who is truly kind tries to come in.. I shut down even more.
I'm blind to it.
To their genuine concern for me.
And that is so heartbreaking,
To want something as simple as to open up to someone.. and not even be able to do that.
So at the end of the day i'm left watching them walk away in defeat.
And every time i'm left with the piece of my heart that always wanted to tell them.
-My two-faced heart
YOU ARE READING
The void.
Poetry"What does depression feel like?" This is a book about hard times/depression that I'm going through. Some of the stuff I write about are things in my life that may not make sense to you because it is so pinpointed to my story. Some of it is not pers...