Redemption From Resemblance (McHanzo)

Mortification, My Old Friend

There's an unsettling noise, a loud creaking that sounds as if the roof will collapse at any moment. Hanzo takes a chance, foot pressing harder against the concrete that's already cracked in multiple places. Nothing gives, and the elder Shimada is silently relieved to know that he didn't blindly jump onto the roof and go plummeting into the ground below. However, he does know that the building he currently resides on would not be able to handle any more than him, and would definitely go crashing down in the middle of a battle. Hanzo marks it in the back of his mind, adding the building to a list that seems to be growing at an alarming rate, and he now counts seven abandoned buildings that would crumble under his weight. The archer goes through the locations again, making sure he remembers so he doesn't fall victim to decaying structures. The first one he marked had been the roof two buildings to the left of the room they're currently staying in. The next was three behind that one, and then the roof to the right of that. Hanzo lists them off, and now with a new danger added, he goes to check the few remaining buildings for stability. As he does so, the assassin's thoughts drift to the conversation with McCree, and he wonders briefly how long he'll have to wait before they can try and go further than kissing. It isn't like Hanzo is in any rush to have sex with the younger man, and he definitely doesn't want to push McCree into doing something he doesn't want to (even though he was told that wasn't the case with the other man). It's simply the prospect of experiencing something he's never felt before again, something that he knows will be different from how everything started. The older man won't have to worry about being pushed away, and instead of needing guidance from his brother, McCree will be the one who provides him with the correct choice of action.

The only problem Hanzo can discern is how the action is going to be executed. For as long as he can remember, he's always been the one to be in control of things. He was meant to lead, to be the one that takes charge in any situation, but the archer doesn't want to do that with the other man. For once, Hanzo wants to relinquish his control and let someone else lead for once, that someone being McCree. It's already been made apparent that the cowboy has far more knowledge and experience, not to mention he would no doubt be the calmer person between the two for when they fall into bed together. Just thinking about holding the reigns, being the one who takes instead of gives when it comes to the younger man, makes Hanzo sneer and a foul feeling clenches his gut. It may change with time, but he knows that won't happen for their first time. Unfortunately, he can't attest to how the gunslinger feels about being in control, and the older man knows it's another thing they'll have to discuss on the matter.

For now though, the mission comes first, and the topic is filed away for later when they have the time to talk about it. The abandoned buildings in Virginia are also not the ideal place for such thoughts, a fact made all the more present when one of the rooftops cracks under his metal feet. Hanzo moves quickly, jumping from one building to the next before he ends up falling through to the floor below. When he's safely on a roof that won't give out from under him, the elder Shimada scans the building he was just on to take in the damage. There's now a hole in the roof, the same spot where he was standing just moments ago, and Hanzo can't stop the small jump his heart makes at the surprise. He silently berates himself, cursing his lack of judgement and his thoughts for getting away from him as he now looks over the building carefully. Had his mind not been elsewhere, the assassin would have seen how rundown and decayed the building was, and he would have known instantly that it would never had withstood his weight. He's actually surprised it's still standing at all, and now noting that there are a total of nine buildings he shouldn't stand on, Hanzo makes the quick trek back to their current hideout.

He knows Satya hasn't returned yet since he saw her walking around just a few minutes ago, nowhere near their current base of operations which means he'll be alone with McCree for a while. The realization makes his chest flutter a little, and looking back now, the archer can't believe he's been allowed such a happiness. He had never even known he could feel what he does for the cowboy, and knowing he can, Hanzo can't fight the small smile spreading over his cheeks. He lets it stay there for a moment, soaking in the joy he feels before he schools his expression back to it's normal state (anger, apparently because he's been told he always looks annoyed). When he's back on the roof of the building they settled in, the elder Shimada takes one more look around to make sure nothing has happened yet before he climbs down. Hanzo decides it would take too long to simply walk back through the front door then climb four flights of stairs, so he goes in through the remains of the window to their room. Understandably, McCree, who had been standing by the window, didn't expect the sudden entry, and ended up jumping backwards into the wall behind him. There was a resounding bang, and both men could only stare at each other in silence with the echo of the noise hanging in the air after it already disappeared. Finally, the younger man regains himself, and he sighs before picking up his hat that had been knocked off when he hit the wall.