The Matchmakers Daughter

(Prologue) The Death of Love

"I'd rather be oblivious to love rather then know it and not have it" 

-Typewritergirl

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I glimpsed at my moms watery eyes as she dropped the phone, I was eight the day death came. The day death took my father from the life I'd never get to spend with him. He had been attacked by a shark the Hospital told my mother. Ask anyone and they would swear ever since Dad was little he and the ocean were united he had emense respect for it. Unlike many who had treated it like a trash bin, or just dismissed the fact that animals lived beneath the waves as well. Which is why I didn't understand how  the ocean sucked my father dry of blood that had allowed so much love to gravitate from him. The ocean always gave him so much joy that it decided to take him that day, a day that was crystal clear from my childhood memories.

My father, had loss too much blood from the shark bite. It was fast and quick, yet so slow and unreal like a dream, the concept of time had been lost. They all kept calling it the shark but in my heart in my mind it was the demon fish. Really such an odd way to go, to think a fish took my dad. Then again seemingly tiny things took the best big things away all the time.

My mom loved my dad a lot I can remember that pain more then the fact that the demon fish got away with it. That he stole many things from something seemingly harmless to it at the time. We musn't hate for we are all connected and together always, for the shark did not do this out of spite. Despite humans who loved to kill, loved to hurt, loved to lie. Why use such a pure thing for so much harm? Why waste a completely good thing to cause mortifying pain? What is gained? This is why I take a step back for I shall not hate nor love for I shall not feel pain.

It's sad really the only thing that should be good uplifting is used many a times for pain. Isn't hate enough? Will you forever fill your heart with such acid you spit at others? We musn't repel against these animals for they are just living and unlike us do not use such precious things to harm. I convinced myself of these things allowing me to not fear or create hate for the shark who mean't no harm. 

So I decided maybe it's best to just not fall in love? Many say the cliche "Tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all."

  I don't know perhaps I would eventually but it will not be my first priority.  Would it really even be that harmful to not fall in love? Would anyone even really fall in love with me?

I would make a promise to have my heart taken only by something big, I'm not giving in so easily if  love tries to catch me.