The Matchmakers Daughter

(2) Chapter Not so much of a victory after all is it

"It's hard living in the present when everything I loved is in the past."

-Lillian Schauer

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I fumbled for a key in my bag with one hand, while holding the gluttonous food in my other hand. Lanie spooned her melty ice cream to her lips. Finally I clicked the key into the lock. Drew and his annoying friends sped away as soon as I put a foot into the door leading to the lonesome house. 

"Ahh the benefit of mom away on trips. Skipping school, McDonald's and I'm with my best friend, AND were home alone." I emphasized the last "and" trying to show all the great things, “My friend does it get any better?" My question rang through the house. 

Lanie spoon fived the straw to my sugary soda, like I needed any sugar haha negative. 

"Pretty sure it does not get any better." Lanie's lips were bright pink from the cold weather and ice cream.

We sat our bags of burgers and fries on the kitchen table, "You're one weird person, who eats ice cream in the fall? Only you Lanie only you ha." She stuffed her mouth with squishy fries, smiling with her cheeks stuffed. I smirked my dimples appearing on either side of my cheeks, but disappeared as I began to think.

I played with my wavy hair as I watched the birds flutter around the fall colored trees. Drumming my fingers against the back of the wooden chair. This house held so many memories and feelings sometimes it was hard to even look at the table without my mind drifting to something about my dad. 

Lanie unwrapped her burger sliding the bag across the table to me. She looked at me confused, " Eat your food we did win it after all free of charge." Lanie laughed. 

"Ha yeah." My smile faded.

"Hmmm what's wrong?"

I took a large bite of food in attempt to avoid answering. I hated talking about him it felt like my chest was caving in and my stomach was shaking uncontrollably. 

"You still didn't fill me in with what happened in math spill." She poked me with her fry trying to make me break so I'd fill her in.

I swallowed my food hard, "You want to know what's wrong? Well I'm not so sure myself right now so I can't give you a proper reason Lanie." My voice sounded a bit sour.

" You could start with what happened in math?" She asked again, with curiosity. 

" Listen I don't want to right now okay? I just don't." More sass entered my tone. 

" Come on Piper I ditched school for you, you got to tell me." Lanie prodded. 

" He still affects me Lanie! I still cry, the nightmares still lace my heart in pain. I keep forgetting him like what he used to like to wear or how he smelled. Or how he would comfort me Lanie, I'm forgetting him the only thing that remains is the pain,and the faint memories this house carries. Every night I go back to that day when I was eight years old. I just want it to stop." My voice began to quiver and my lips wobbled, eyes filling with tears," I want it to stop I want it to stop." I cried. 

Her eyes widened, "Piper it's okay to miss him." Lanie's voice tried to soothe me.

Tears filled my chocolate brown eyes like a glass of water, " But why does it have to still hurt so bad?"

She looked down as if unsure about how to answer. " Because you cared so much. Piper you can’t and won't ever forget your dad."

" See that's why I can't get close I can't fall in love, I'll care to much Lanie."