CHAPTER 5
Alena...
The place where I am is horribly dark. It's hard to breathe. It's so uncomfortable. I can't talk, move all I can do is lay there. I hate it. So lonely and boring. But never the less, I'm determined to get through this. I think of games to play on my own. Planning my future. With jase. By the sea. Little apartment. Decked in art deco furniture and paintings that I will paint. I will own a little gallery. On the corner of a street with pictures of the sea and towns. What a nice future...
Jase
I have to tell her. It's bursting to be let out. I really have to tell her. I mean what if we break up, then what will I do? I love her! More than anything. I was about to tell her, about what happened. About my brothers drug problem. That guy in the car. My brother. Shouting abuse because I refused to talk to him, ever. He tried to push me into taking drugs. I refused obviously. But it won't be long before he tries again. He and his girlfriend, that's all they do. Drugs! That's the only thing that keeps them together. That's it really, I will really miss Alena, if she goes. You know, dead. But I'm not thinking about that, not ever.
Alena's Mum.
My little girl, in a coma. Well you don't really expect that do you. George, My divorced husband, Alena's dad, came home from Ireland today as soon as he heard the news. He said "Maybe we can make another go of it Sharon?" I really wish we could, but we can't put anymore stress on our relationship especially as our daughter is in a unstable condition. "I will think about it", I said "When she is better." I don't want to get his hopes up, but I never stopped loving him. Even when he left me for a blonde bitch, I never stopped loving him.
When I sit by Alena and I hold her hand, sometimes I think she can here me, because she groans, or sighs. I play music to her and I hope that she hears me. The doctors say, she might not get better. They might have to turn the life support machine off. It's up to me and her dad now. Only we can decide our daughters fate. I don't know how Jase and Tish will take it, our decision will effect them too. They visited so often that I thought of them as part of the family. I want to hang on as long as possible, to keep her memory alive....
Vicky
Its mine turn to sit with Alena tonight, we don't have school tomorrow because they are replumbing the whole building. Lucky us! So I said I would wait with her whilst her parents get some rest. They are coming back in the morning with a decision whether or not to turn the life support machine off. I hope they keep it on. I don't no what I would do with out Alena. Ok, we were best friends in primary school, and until Tish joined our year, but we have never been that close. But I still like to think, inside, that we will always be best friends. Well I hope.
Alena
The bright light of the ward pieced through my eyes and into my head. I wake abruptly, unaware of my surroundings. I don't know how long I have been asleep, but it feels as if I have been in a different world completely. I cannot remember my dream, but I know it was weird. Next to me is Vicky holding my hand and singing "N-Dubz" to herself. I turn over in my bed and look at her. She looks at me. She suddenly bursts into tears. My throat is dry and I can't speak. I nod towards the jug of water on my bedside table. She quickly pours me glass of ice cold water and holds it for me to drink.
"You took your time didn't you?" she said jokey.
"What happened," I stammer "Where are you going"
She leaves the cubical and I'm on my own. I look around the room towards the window. I see my Dad's red beetle sitting in front of a fountain. Suddenly, Mum, Dad, Vicky and a group of doctors surround me. Doctors inserting needles and reading graphs. Mum, Dad and Vicky hold my hands and cry. You would of thought that with all the crying that the didn't want me back. I stared into space and didn't take in anything they were saying. I couldn't understand them through the sobs. Doctors pulled my parents aside and they started whispering ten to the dozen. The Doctors went away and left me on my own with Vicky again.
"I called Tish. And Jase " She said. "They're on their way". She takes my hand in hers and squeezes it. "Your gonna be ok. The doctors say you will make a full recovery." I see the promise of hope in her eyes. I try to hang on to that last piece of hope. It could be the only chance I get.
Doctors say, that if you talk to coma patients, that they can here you. I didn't think I could, but as soon I saw Jase's face as he rushed into my cubical, it all came back to me. He tries to hold my hand, but I struggle free from his grasp. He holds out a gift.
"Seeing that you missed you birthday and all". He sounds disappointed, but I am too full of worry to bother with the guilt of hurting his feelings. I always thought that we were close until recently, but now he seems absent minded around me. Unless he wants to be with me, he shuts off and joins his mates and completely blanks me. I take the gift and look at the girly pink wrapping paper and the white bow. "He didnt wrap it himself" is my first thought. He cant even tie his shoe laces, so there's no way, he could do something alaborate as this. I untie the ribbon and fold it into quarters before putting it on the bed. I peel away the paper, and see a brown box, the right size for a pair of earrings or something. I pull the top of the box, revealing the most beautiful necklace I have ever seen. A simple gold cross on a thin chain with a ruby hanging from underneath the cross.
"I love it," I say and I really mean it. I sit up and give him a hug. He smiles at me.
"Look at the back." He says. I turn over the cross, and see the words "Alena and Jase, 4 ever" with in a love heart. A fluttering appears inside my stomach. "He still loves me!" I think to myself. "And I love him!
