Do you love me? A Tanner Braungardt f.f

Relief.

Tanners pov-
I see Paris crying, I thought it was because she couldn't get into her house, but she told me otherwise.
"I can't handle it anymore." She said crying. I took her phone and saw the messages.
"Paris, I get it if you don't want to be with me anymore. Just tell me, it's ok." I said leaning down and hugging her. She ended up pulling me in for a kiss which was fine by me.
"Tanner I love you so much." She said
" I know." I said kissing her hand. I wiped the tears from her face and dragged her into my car.
"iHop?" I said
"It's 3 in the morning?" She said laughing.
"That's the point!" I said laughing as we drove to iHop.
After iHop I was looking at fan pages and they all didn't like Paris. I commented on a few telling to leave us alone.
We were laying on my bed, and Paris looked up at me.
"Tanner?" She said shyly.
"Yeah?" I said.
"What would you do if I killed myself?" She said sadly.
"Oh no you aren't. If you kill yourself im dying with you." I said.
"Don't even think about it." I added.
"Ok, ilysm." She said. I leaned down and kissed her forehead.
"Also my mom wants me home, she said she made muffins and her muffins are the best." She said.
"Oh ok." I said turning on my phone, it was 7:39 am.
Paris's pov
I went home even though my mom wasn't there. She never texted me, I just need to get away from Tanner so I can do something.
GRAPHIC CONTENT. I RECOMMEND THAT YOU DONT READ IF YOU DONT LIKE SELF HARM- oops spoiler.

I ran up to the bathroom and took my eyeliner sharpener. I took out the blade with a screw drive. I carefully headed over the tub. I herd that it more relief if you cut underwater, so I turned the water on. I carefully slid the blade across my wrists. It didn't do anything really, just little cuts. So I pushed harder, and it felt way better. I cried a bit. I love Tanner and I can't show him this. I covered them up with some toilet paper and athletic wrap. Then pulled on a Pink (as in the brand) hoodie, and drove back to Tanners house, only because since my mom is gone there is nothing else to do. We hoverboarded for a little bit then went inside to eat some Doritos.
"You took a while to eat that muffin." He said laughing.
"Well, when I eat one I have to eat like 2 more!" I said laughing.
"Hey let's go to my room." He said.
"Yeah, sure." I said.
We laid on his bed for a little while then I got hot and took off my hoodie.
"What's that?" Tanner said pointing to my arm.
"Oh nothing. I burned myself that's it." I said.
"Oh, let me see it! I can help." He said concerned.
"No it's ok!" I yelled.
"LET ME SEE." He screamed at the top of his lungs. He grabbed my arms and unwrapped the athletic wrap. He undid the toilet paper and stares at me. He started crying
"Why why why." He repeated.
"It felt good." I said. "It's ok." I added on.
"ITS NOT OK." He yelled . I started crying so hard I couldn't breathe. He touched my hair and kissed my arm.
"These-these cuts. You needed me and I wasn't there to stop you. I HATE MYSELF." He yelled.
"TANNER STOP NOW!!" I yelled. It went dead silent.

Oooohhhh dang. I'll continue don't worry. But I've been writing longer chapters now so why not, I mean it's not too long but oh whale 🐳)