Diaries Of An Introvert

Feeling good - My way

Ever had a day, or if you are having one right now where sadness surrounds like fog, which you can't quite see the end of. Where you want somebody to talk to you but at the same time also ignore people. Hungry yet not actually eating. Lying awake at night contemplating life.

Now, there can be a number of reasons as to why you are feeling that way. My reasons include not having a boyfriend. Or simply not being pretty enough or thin enough, ( Can I blame the models, I'm blaming all models ) for not letting me be content with being curvy. It's strange how much society influences us and then still expect us to be ourselves. Irony much...

But in the end, the reasons don't quite matter as much as you think they do. What is important is, however, how to deal with the emotions.

Now there's two types of way to dealing with it. Not to sound against these people but giving to drugs, booze or self harm isn't the right way. It may certainly feel right doesn't mean that it actually is. Just my opinion as a person, no hate alright? Ie. You Don't have any right to comment........ You're right. I Don't.

Or it's doing the tougher thing and actually manning up and talking about it. For starters I've always felt that talking about something for the first time is always easier with a total stranger. Make internet friends that you can share everything with, 100℅ honestly. After a while, it gets easier and then you can actually talk about it to people in your real life without worrying about judgements and criticisms.

If talking is not your forté, make yourself so busy that your mind doesn't have time to dwell on less trivial matters. As my mum always said " An empty mind is where the devil resides ". Do things that make you happy. If looking at people's instagram or Facebook makes you hate your life. As simple as that, delete such apps. The purpose of Facebook may have been connecting with friends but now it's just another means of competition. In terms of the number of likes and exotic locations. There a bunch of healthy ways to spend your time like watching YouTube videos, regardless of genre it's bound to increase your knowledge. Follow Youtubers that spread positivity along with life lessons.

              Now I realise that creativity is good for the soul. But honestly it's too much effort and DIY's or Art can feel forced if not making you feel like you completely useless if it doesn't succeed.
         
                 Hone skills which you are already capable of. For instance I pride my love and skills in technology. So learn how to make a GIF. If you like books, buy more books ! It's that simple. But try getting a different genre or of a different author.

              Honestly the world forces us to be extroverted. If you don't speak up then you aren't doing it right. And chances the person telling you to be an extrovert is an extrovert himself..... Not exactly the correct role model. But they don't get that speaking out gives me severe anxiety and I more often than not end up regretting speaking. So yes I choose to be introverted and I am happy with that unless of course the situation demands for it.

                           Living is difficult. But if you choose to live by your standards, it won't be as frustrating. At the end of the day you should be able to look in the mirror and be okay with your decisions regardless of what they are.
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Alright
I'm so sorry for not having updated sooner. But I went through a difficult period In my life where I was getting very closed to being depressed again. And taking the time off from here seemed like a good decision until it became the way where I felt I would never write again.

So here's a knock knock joke as my peace offering

Knock knock

Who's there

Theodore

Theodore who.?

Theodore was locked so I knocked

😂😂 It's just something about them that I love so much.  

Arrivederci 💖💖💖