I am Lola

Chapter 1

12th Grade, last year of high school. I should have been excited, but I wasn't. I was scared. What upsets me is I didn't know what I was scared of, until the first day of school.

“ Hey Lola!”

“ Hi Michael how was your summer?”

“ Great, I got a new girlfriend…” Then he told me all about how they met, and how he asked her out blah blah blah. The truth was I wasn’t even listening. Before the summer I was into Michael. Well kind of. And now I didn’t care about what he did, let alone him having a girlfriend. I guess I wasn't in love with him after all. Which sucks really considering I felt bad about dumping him when he was actually really into me. But, I guess now since he has a new girlfriend and all, he's not really upset about what happened this summer. 

As I was saying I changed a lot, and the old Lola would have listened to Micheal and gave him advice and all of stupid shitty things girls do for boys. But no, all I did was nod and walk away. I guess I wasn't still over the fact that he had gotten a new girlfriend this quick. I mean, I was happy for him for finding someone that he actually loves but I guess I felt threatened. Which explains why I was always comparing myself to her. Cammy, her name is Cammy, I mean I don't know her but Micheal told me she's totally hot. I always imagined her as MUCH prettier than I am... which sucks because I don't want my ex to be with someone prettier then me. No one does.

As I was walking through the corridor I felt like I was still in middle school, our school is not that big, so everyone just dates everyone's ex's. There are about two or three couples who NEVER brake up. Seriously, they break up, then make up the next day. But I think there are only two couples that are the real deal.

Cassie and Jason (The off and on couple of the school, seriously EVERYONE knows about them) then there is Joyce and Dean (They just started going out this summer.)

I wasn't really considered "popular". But I liked my life because no one bothered me. Everyone just went about their own business. I thought in high school this wouldn't change. I was wrong.

"Oh.My.Godddd."

"What?"

"Hottie with a body... to your left."

"I totally see him... Darn he is cuu-ute!"

Yeah, that was Macy and Trisha (Two of my best friends) They always picked out the new hot boys worth wasting time with and make a list. Not that they actually talk to them or anything. They just like their little list.

Most of the boys on their list turn out to be players anyway and everyone knows how that's like. So we have a rule not to date players. I still regret that I broke it. Twice. We had that rule for a reason, not that any of us knew how bad it would be (until I started dating one myself, that is) but we watched movies, like everyone else. And in almost all "teen" movies players were considered bad.

"Lolaaaa"

"What?"

"Did you see that guy, he is so hot, we should put him on your list."

"I don't have a list."

I was lying. Every girl has a list. Some girls don't think of it that way but every girl knows who they could date, who they would date, and who they should date, and I wasn't an exception. I just didn't make a list and I wasn't all that open about my feelings like all the other girls were. I kept to myself most of the time and never told anyone anything.

Accept, Trisha and Macy of course, they made it their duty to look after me so they had to know everything. 

While Macy and Trisha were talking I decided to go outside and be alone for a while. There was ten minutes until class would start, and I knew where I was going. I went outside to get some fresh air and I heard two voices talking. They sounded like two guys, but then again maybe I was wrong.

"I still can't believe you haven't told anyone about us."

"It's too soon, I cant just tell Lola that I really love someone else now."

"You told her you were dating someone else didn't you?"

"I did, look I love you Cam and I don't care if anyone says anything. But it's too soon to tell Lola I'm dating a guy." OH.MY.GOD. Micheal was gay. Micheal was GAY. I never noticed anything feminine about him before... I can't believe it, and I have never met a gay person before, only seen one in movies so I had no idea of what to look out for. 

"OK, I love you too." They kissed. How romantic was that? They are just too cute together. I am so happy for Micheal, he really loves Cam. I just hate how our school can be so judge mental.

Then they started coming towards my direction and I panicked. 

"Lola?" That was Micheal. I dropped my books on the floor and ran to my next class as fast as I could. 

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 A/N

Hey lovlies! Hope you like the story so far! Enjoy your day/night! 

Izzie xx