Luminary Ones (Harry styles & Lana Del Rey)

Apologies

Harry's POV:

I've been laying in bed all day today. I know that I should go out and have fun, but I don't feel like it right now. All I can think about is that I was reunited with Lizzy. I have so many mixed emotions- happy, sad, angry. Maybe I overreacted when I yelled at her, but it all came like a shock for me. I haven't seen her for 4 years, and now she suddenly shows up? Or maybe I'm the one who suddenly showed up.

I heard someone knocking on the door but didn't wait for an answer, and Louis stepped inside.

"Haz, you have to get out of the bed. Come and eat with us, we ordered brazilian."

"No. I'm not hungry."

" C'mon, you can't be without food all day now can you?" he sat down on my bed.

"I can if I want to."

"You have to eat, aren't you supposed to go out with Taylor later or something?" he asked.

"Do you think I give a darn about Taylor right now?" I snapped at him. I immediately regretted it, he has done nothing wrong.

"Sorry" I apologized. He just nodded his head as if 'its okay', and then left the room. Why do I always have to f*ck things up?

I felt my phone vibrate,

Taylor calling

 

Ugh, I'm not in the mood for talking right now. Especially not with her since she was the one who started the fight last night. I am mad at her, but also happy that she told me- or us. I don't think Lizzy would've told me anytime sooner anyway. I was staring at the phone, thinking about if I should answer or not. I finally made my desicion and clicked on the green button.

"Hey" my raspy voice echoed through the speaker.

"Hey, are we still going out tonight or?"

"Taylor, I'm actually not in the mood for talking right now."

"I know that you are mad at me, but you deserved to know the truth. And she was always hanging out with you, she shouldn't be allowed to do that. I mean, she was lying for f*cks sake!"

" I know but I can't be enemies with her forever."

"Who says you can't? Harry, she is trying to tear us apart! She hangs out with you all the time and she gives me cold glares allt the time!"

"I can't just remove her out of my life, Taylor! She was a big part of my life."

"You were away from her for four years, I think you can handle another sixty!"

"Maybe I can, but I don't want to."

 

Then I hang up. I can't believe I said that to my own girlfriend, but was I said is the truth. I don't care that she was lying, she is still a big part of my life. I loved her once, I don't think I ever stopped. I just learned to ignore it. I promised her that I never would leave her and I haven't broken that promise yet. Yes, I left for four years, but I didn't leave completely out of her life. I knew we would bump into each other again some day. No matter how much I say I hate her, she will always be special to me. I still have the necklace I bought to her and myself. I know she still has it, she would never throw it away- not even if she hates me, because I know I'm special to her too. I think I saw her wearing a necklace at starbucks, but I'm not sure if it was the one I gave her.

"Someone is outside the door, she wants to speak with you." Liam peeked through my door. Oh shit, please don't let it be Taylor!

I walked to the door and saw her standing there. Her brown hair falling down on her shoulder, I've always loved her hair.

"Hey" she said in a low voice. I was surprised by how 'scared' she was to talk to me, she should be comfortable. But I don't blame her, she is probably ashamed of what she did and frightened of my sudden outburst.

"Hey" I said in the exact tone as her. She fiddled with her fingers before speaking up again.

"I'm sorry." she blurted out.

"I'm sorry for everything and I know that I was stupid as f*ck. I don't even deserve do have my apology accepted, I regret everything but I was so scared that you were going to ditch me and be mad at me for not contacting you for four yea-" she rabbled on and on but I interrupted her.

"I was the one who didn't contact you. You shouldn't be sorry about that. You should be mad at me for that."

She sighed and ran her rands through her long hair while biting her bottom lip.

"I know. But I'm sorry for the things I did. I don't expect you to be my friend again, but I just want you to know I don't hate you. I could never hate you, Harry." she looked into my eyes, and I knew she was telling the truth. Right at that moment, a figure was coming towards us in the hallway. Such a moment ruiner.

"What are you guys doing?" the blonde girl appeared. Lizzy was back to fiddling with her fingers, while I was standing there awkwardly.

"Just...talking. What are you doing here anyway?" I changed subject.

"Can't I visit my own boyfriend?" she put emphasis on 'boyfriend', which made Lizzy shift uncomfortably.

"Well, uhm, I should go now...Uh, yeah, bye." she left quickly.

I wish she could stay with me instead of Taylor.