Grabbed my notebooks , pencils , paper , etc and shoved it right into my bag. I looked around for my shoes I couldn't find them! I was already late for the first day back to school starting off as a sophomore out of a stupid freshman thank god! This morning isn't much different like last year or the year before that... I'm always late and rushing. "TURN ON THE CAR IM COMING!" "OKAY HONEY" I grab my phone and iPod and ran out of my room but turned back around for my headphones. I'm running down the stairs in my flats with short shorts and a tank top that says " live free :P " I run to the kitchen grab an apple and walked the rest to the car. I sat in the car and started thinking...
*flashback to freshmen year*
"Stupid bitch got no friends that's why u eating your lunch alone Ha fucking prick"
"leave me alone please" my voice is starting to crack "please why are you doing..."
I hear a door slam I snap out of my flashback/thinking. "Are we going to be doing this again Nicole and where's your damn brother?!" "I don't know mami I hadn't seen him ugh were going to be more late cause of him now" my mom gives me this look I turn around and looked out of my window. "JUSTIN GET YOUR FUCKING ASS TO THE CAR NOW!!!" Is she really screaming out the window right now?! I grab my phone and texted Justin.
"where the fuck r u"
"comin down stairs damn"
"mami is hype! justin I'm scared..."
"why sis"
"what if nothing changed what if everything is still the same?! justin :( "
"sis I'm here I'll be here this time I hate I wasn't there but I'll be with you all the way!!"
"but... ur leaving next year"
"I'm planning on staying back so I won't leave you just yet"
"what will mami say"
"mami idk but I'm shittin my pants"
"oh okay, dudeeeee were late where the fuck are you?"
"we're at school stupid ass :P"
"wtf"
I looked up and we we're at school I guess I was so into my phone and blasting my music I didn't notice. I turned it down and looked at my mom she was giving me a worry look. " I love you mami I'm scared but I have justin "
" yo te amo mi amor.... don't let nothing happen to you punch someone if you have too!"
" I won't I got to go bye mami" I gave her a long hug and a quick kiss so did justin me and him walk to the entrance of high school to a new year to another year. Time to be someone who I am not just to fit in and only having one friend... my classroom was so far from Justin, ugh fuck my life. There was kids running back and froth there was some shaking like me and then there was those kids happy to see all their fake friends. I didn't get it...
I walk in class and went straight to the back. I felt safe there like no one can touch me like no one can see me I sat there and looked out the window thinking why did summer had to go so fast it came and left in a heart beat. I snapped out of my gaze when I heard my name called "here" and looked out the window. The teacher didn't seem such a bad teacher but she's only my homeroom teacher for a few minutes in the morning and I'm off to strangers to different teachers different students different hours different classes everything is different I just hope everyone forgot who I was and everything with me is different but aren't I wishing to much... who's going to forget me in two months? no one...
I have been through all my three classes I hadn't talked looked at anybody I only spammed the room to look for my best friend Lindsay but no where I hadn't seen her all day! "Nicole" "yes mr?" "ah are you alright? you hadn't said anything or answered any of my questions I have asked the classroom including you" "I'm sorry I just don't feel well..." that's half a truth I just don't feel like talking and I kinda have a headache but I can live "okay class well welcome to sophomore year and have a great rest of the day"
*bell rings* I grabbed my backpack and walked out of class I looked at my paper to see what I had next... LUNCH!! About time, I been waiting all day. I walk in and everything hits all at once... I stopped for a sec and turned around and bumped into this junior. He looked down at me and smirked and kept walking. I turned around to look at him and he turned around to look at me omg I was kinda freaking out a little! A cute guy just smirked at me and turned around to see me again!! I turned around facing the cafe again and walked in looking for Justin. I walked almost all the cafe to find that butt hole!
I walked to him and sat next to him. " ayeee is that ur gf?" "dude that's my sister..." that kid must feel stupid now "justin I have no one.. is it okay if I sit here and eat my lunch I'll have my head phones on so I won't be a bother" " it's alright sis and your not a bother!" " okay but I'm still going to leave you and ur friends alone" "alright" and with that he turned back his attention to them. I had my music blasting in my ears when I get a text " I see you have to sit with your brother so you won't be a loner aww how cute " I didn't reply and put my volume lower. someone sat next to me but I paid no attention. I got another text "bitch I'm watching you every sec every move" I looked up and looked at Justin. He knew something was up I stood up with my lunch and got pushed it dropped all over me and some on... oh no no no no why me? why?!! " OMG I'm soo sorry I OMG I'm so sorry someone pushed me and.." he interrupted me " it's alright sweetie" why did I have to drop my food on the cute guy ugh I took my phone I looked at him and mouthed sorry and walked away close to tears everyone was laughing Justin was walking behind me. I through myself back against the wall hoping if I hit hard enough I would faint or something. Justin found me and grabbed me and hugged me. I didn't want to let go then I saw that cute guy walk in too and he opened his eyes wide " oh I'm sorry man I'll let you be" "hahaha Stanley she's not my girlfriend this is my sister she's a sophomore" "oh ha ha sorry I just... um are you alright... " "it's Nicole " I gave him a half sad happy smile " you want a hug?" "I don't..." in secs I was in his arms I didn't have time to finish my sentence but that hug was amazing it was just something I needed I closed my eyes and I held on tighter and so did he. I looked up and said thank you I started crying why? why now?! he wiped my tears "sweetie don't cry! your to beautiful to have tears in your eyes" I looked up and looked at the time " I - I got to go um my cl - class is next. see you around" I turned and walked away I felt his stare following me.
Rest of the day went slow. I never saw my friend oh well maybe tomorrow. I called my mom and told her that I'm going to walk she said it was. I guess she texted Justin cause him and his friends were walking with me I felt like a child. Everyone knew Justin his well known. His friends are mostly juniors and seniors. We started walking but then stopped we were waiting for someone but I kept walking. I didn't really feel like stopping for anyone or anything. I heard them jogging to caught up to me " damn you walk fast" I giggled "well thank you try to keep up " I gave him a wink his name is Jason I use to have the biggest crush on him I still like him but not as much as I use to his eyes are what attracted me! Jason had the lightest blue eyes I have ever seen in my life he was hot. I heard him laughing. "what are you laughing about punk !" I stuck out my tongue he did the same. I felt an arm around me.
