go home, continue to flood your thoughts of the person whom controls your will to happiness and allow those thoughts to consume and take over you to a point where you can't even eat or decipher what is real or what is not.
being left with that blank emotionless face you got used to as your ability to feel, becomes numb... which you discover is a peaceful feeling.
then finally realize that without them you're nothing but wasted space with no meaning or part in this life.
