SOMEONE WORTH SUFFERING FOR

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by JoDLeon

by JoDLeon

I look at the mirror. Disappointed. Asking questions.
Am i ok?
Am i behaving well?
Am i annoying?
Depressed i went out the door, dissappointed with myself. I reflect back on my decisions what i have done wrong. What i did. People are my friends but sometimes i wonder are they realky my true friends. Of course they are. I say to myself. But deep down i aint really sure. I reflect on my actions. I try to smile? But is it really real?
I try to smile to not worry anyone.
Cause a fake smile wil hurt me. But it wont worry anyone. Pain? Whenever that happens i hold back my tears. Try not to cry for the sake of others.
If my happines brings bad stuff to my friends i would rather be sad.

Words of people to compmiment.
"You look good" "good job" i think those are just words to make people feel better.
I dont look good. People say "you look ok" im not smart people say "your smart" A friend should not lie to comfort you. But tell you the truth.
I have alot of flaws.
Some people ignore it.
Some people ran away from it.
But so far, no one accepted it.

I went to school, meeting my friends who ignore my flaws and peopel who ignore it.I think that i will suffer no matter where i go.

Then i met... this girl. Her name is Joanna. During a science class i was able to be partnered with her. And she was the first one who accepted me.
That made me happy. Finally a person who wont ignore them. Finally a person who accepts me. I soon met more people who became what i can call "Real Friends".
They dont lie.
They dont ignore.
They were truly my best friends.
But my real closest friend is Joanna. She is someone i can trust, i can ask help for. I understood her, and she understood me.I thought that i wont have to suffer anymore.
But that wasnt true.
There were times were i suffered with them.One time i suffered worse than i ever did.

One time Joanna and my other friends were getting mugged by some peeps. I russhed to help them.Hoping they would be ok. I was severely injured. I gave what i have that day to them. Just to help My friends.That are just one out of several bad experiences i had.

Then i learned. That everyone will hurt you i just have to look for the ones worth suffering for.
And i found that person. It was Joanna.
I soon developed feelings for her. I told her how i felt. And she felt the same way.After that. We became closer than ever.

I thought it would never end. But once again i was wrong.One day a person who liked Joanna got a huge grudge on me.He tried to kidnapp her. I tried my best to help Joanna. I pulled him and punched him. He pulled out a knife pointed it at me.

"Stay...where you are...why you?(in a cryin voice) why YOU? why are you the one chosen? This isnt fair. This isnt FAIRRR!"
"Just, just calm down."
He rushed at me and stabbed me.Joanna russhed to me. "Dont die, dont die. Pls.pls dont...0ls dont...LUKEEEEE!!!!😭😭" dont worry. No matter what. I will always be with you. Guiding you, and loving you. I may be dead, bit my love for you will not end" she was truly worth suffering for. THE END