8 days 'til valentine's day ...

A relationship with the deadliest man on earth seemed to be not so easy? To be the girlfriend of the Winter Soldier was maybe difficult? Maybe, but for you it was your daily life and you loved it. You loved him. You were in love with Bucky Barnes even when he never said it to you but that wasn't necessary.

You awoke in the night to stop his nightmares, even if he was angry and in a bad mood after that and you bear with it.

You got out of bed early to make him coffee, even if he didn't drink it because he has an appointment with Steve he didn't have told you.

You were there for him every time he came back from a mission, with a warm meal, a cold drink and you dressed his wounds, even if it wasn't necessary because he is a super soldier.

You tried your best to smooth down differences between Bucky and Sam, even if the reason for the fights were childish and most the time you were laughing about it.

Steve was like your brother and your best friend at the same time and helped you every time when Bucky was in his 'dark'-mood.

8 days 'till valentine's day...

But on this special day it was different. You came home from your work at the Stark Tower. You were one of Tony's best technical assistant. You entered the little, cute apartment you two shared, with bags full groceries for dinner. It was near the Tower but nevertheless it gave you two the needed privacy.

"Hey Buck. Can you, can you help me please?" you said but you got no response. You closed the door with your feet and threw your key into the bowl next to the entrance. The apartment was unusually dar.. You put the bags down and walked into the living room. You could see Bucky's dark and huge frame sitting on the couch but the TV was turned off. You approached behind the couch, snaked your arms around his neck and pressed a kiss on his temple.

"Hey handsome. What are you doing here alone in the dark?" you whispered as you pressed delicately kisses along his jawline. Bucky laid his hand on your arm and pushed it slowly away. You stepped confused back. Bucky stood up and turned to you but he avoided your glance.

"Bucky what's wrong?" you asked again and now you were insecure.

"I can't do that anymore Y/N." he said with a deep voice and avoided still your eyes.

"What do you mean?" you asked, fear was in your voice. That wasn't his normal behaviour.

"Us. I can't do that anymore." he said but he still refused to look at you. Anger and rage grew in your body. You closed your eyes to steady your breath.

"I-I'm sorry..." Bucky started but you stopped him with one of his fingers.

"Don't! Don't you dare to say anything else. I can't believe it Bucky. After all ... I don't know where this came from but I can't handle it anymore. I can't handle your moodiness." you said with tears in your eyes. You grabbed your purse and rushed out of the door. Bucky realized what he did in this second you stormed out of the apartment but as he reached the door you were already out of his sight.

7 days 'til valentine's day...

In the next morning Bucky awoke in an empty bed. That was normal for him, you normally made him coffee, but this morning he couldn't scent the calming and cozy smell from the kitchen, he couldn't hear your silent but melodic voice which sang one of your favorite songs. He got out of bed only to find the apartment empty, dark and cold and he didn't like it.

6 days 'til valentine's day...

"Bucky again. Y/N please, call me back. I need to talk to you. I know I made a big mistake." Bucky said desperately and left this message on your answering machine. It was one of many messages he left. He tossed his phone away and raked his fingers frustrating through his long hair.