Secrects hurt just as bad as scars..

Is this heaven?

I can't tell if this is real or not!

The boy I fell in love with is in my room looking at me what do I say no what do I do no how do I explain myself to him the only time he noticed me has to be NOW.... He said hi can I say hi back ???? Can you hear me god what do I say back??? He said he's sorry Lizzy did this to me... God are you there is this a second chance?!!? I finally took the chance to say that I wish I never picked up the blade or even brought the journal to school in the first place... But god he just said he likes me ..god if you really are real can you tell me if I'm in heaven?????