One Last Dance [COMPLETED] ✔

One Last Dance • 5

V.I.Ps??  How were they doing?? What must they be thinking about Bigbang?? About me?? It's so much to say than to react. My heart aches whether I see posts of us from upset fans on intagram. They are the reason why i am so popular nowadays and is this how i replay them?? Such a bad thing?!

Interviews!? Watching our old interviews  and livestreams were the worst ideas ever! VIPs cheering over our songs, over us, over BIGBANG!

My life...all my life i dedicated it for nothing. I trained for 6 years just to become who I am today. Now all my dreams fade away and nothing motivates me to be the real  me anymore. Eomma,are you guiding me in the right path??

Locking myself in my room, i watched all our awards event. Bts, isnt it?? This group won a lot of awards. Maybe they will replace us, Bigbang after our disband...... NO NO NOOO they won't!! We're Big Bang for life no matter what happens to us. #BigBangForLife

I crawled under my blankets and positioned myself to sleep peacefully without the need to worry about my problems...

They won't trouble me anymore....at least Not Today..

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Recording hardcore... nothing worth more that some time alone for recording alone.

Youngbae was beside me recording too but compared to me, he was very normal and energetic. And here, i was living my life tiredly.

Hyung was at the computerizer while the maknae line was messing around as always. Teddy was along with TOP, correcting me and Youngbae whenever we were doing any mistakes. Oh well VIPs please wait for us. Oppa will be back...

At around noon, we took a lunch break. Everyone settled down around the mini lunch table and we thanked ourselves for our hard worl before attacking like hungry beasts.

In the afternoon, free time! Hyung and i went to an art exhedition at my company's spot, PEACEMINUSONE.

The others went to our dorm since they were all exhausted from recording.

You know what's weird?! The fact that tomorrow will be held the 12th Seoul Music Award and that we, bigbang are invited. They even told me to perform so that i could make my appearance after 3 whole years.

I don't mind doing so but the problem is that, as an already broken band why did they still invite us?? Maybe they still remember us bigbang?! Maybe they still like us?! Maybe they want us to perform again for all VIPs?! Or maybe also they had pity on us so they decided to invite us?! Or maybe Hyung did a movie who's soundtrack was nominated or so?!

It was so weird that the whole day, my mind was completely wondering over that. I would from times to times, space out and got even scolded for being away in mind.

Was it weird to say that i needed what all children need the most in life?? The comfort of their one beloved lady, my mother...