Alright, this might sound silly but i have come to a conclution that ill be writing my personal journal on here every day... So heres entry numba one:
Today was fricken amazing. I can't even explain it. That one person i love hung out with me today. He is absolutly the nicest person i have ever met and he understands me in every way possible. Hes hilarious and makes me laugh, and i can be myself around him. But he has a girlfriend. When i see them together a pit forms in my stomach and i want to run away screaming, but at the same time i feel happy to see him happy with her. But anyway, today after school he hung out with me. For some reason i didnt act like ME. Maybe i was nervous. All i know is that i definitely love that boy. Love is a fucked up, strange thing that makes me feel happy, sad, well... it basically makes me go insane. I have dealt with love at a young age like this, as weird as it may seem. For a while there i thought i would give up on love forever because i had my heart broken so many times. I realized that life is full of risks that we all need to take, love being one of them. As scary as it seemed, i went all out looking for this so- called "love". I looked literally everywhere. I dated boys that were the complete opposite of me, That didnt work out. I dated guys the same as me, that definitely didnt work out. Now i find the perfect boy, and hes taken by some nice girl who im insanely jelous of. She doesnt know it i bet, but shes the luckiest girl in this whole motherfucking world. In fact, right now shes probably talking shit about him to all her little friends. LITTLE DOES SHE KNOW, hes the best its gonna get. so just letting you know, I love you, <3 Goodnight
