Am I ready for this? No, absolutely not. Something about this change has me thinking that it's gonna suck. Not with the fact that I'm moving, that's minor now because of the fact I can't CHANGE it, no matter how much I want to. But the fact that with every change that comes at me in some form it always finds a way to bring me down and tear me apart. I know this because it's happened before. It's happened all throughout my life so far.
I always grew up basically doing things on my own. Always doing something for someone else, but it's not that I don't like to do things for others; I do. It's those things that I do for people that if it's not good enough then I might as well have failed because I'm afraid of people telling me I need to do better.
Like with me and my family, my small family of four. I've got my mom, sister, brother, and me. Dad left. So I took that job and being sort of a father for my younger siblings. It's rough, yes but we get by. But with this task thrown onto me, I've 'trained' myself to be the best that they have. I wanna be good enough for them.
With this change I have a feeling that the worst is yet to come. But, I'm gonna keep my head high, mind straight, and thoughts positive because the only way it won't turn out bad is if I don't encourage the bad. I'm gonna listen to what my little brother said, don't be blue and keep thinking positive.
Don't be blue Ash, you'll be okay...
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Hi! Sorry it took me so long to write this chapter. It's pretty much just a filler. Please let me know what you think, it would really help me a lot. I love ya ❤️
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FanfictionAshton's the new kid. Being the new kid is hard when your being bullied non stop. But bullying does something to Calum and vows to quit before it can do anymore damage.
