Hanging tree

You lay lying there motionless on the ground. You felt astonishing pain. Like someone had ripped your heart out and stabbed your life less, soulless body that simply had no meaning anymore.

"UGLY!" "FAT!" "WORTHLESS!"

These words kept circling around and around in your head.

Nobody loved you. Nobody cared. Not a single soul.

You had lost everything and all meaning in life.

You had lost the love of your life and life is unbearable without him.

You picked up the razor (You had tried to cut before but you simply couldn't).

But now was different. You and him where friends but still you felt like you had lost him forever.

He knows everything about you.Your past,what makes you smile and all your weird and wonderful quirks(well they where wonderful to him but you didn't think so).

You could write endless books about how much you love him. He is your everything. Your life,your soul.

You tried to hate him but it simply was no good.

Even through hurting you like this.You loved him more than ever and deep down inside he will always be your boyfriend. But you will never be his girlfriend again.

You put down the razor, but stare at it.

Are you the one that is being selfish.

You couldn't stop crying you used hankie after hankie.To wipe away the tears.But still you cried.

You would always have that cloud of sadness following you everywhere and raining down on you.

You where angry, scared and confused. All at the same time.

You wondered what did you do to deserve all this.

You looked at your phone one last time and texted him "bye. I can't live life anymore."

As soon as you picked up the razor for a second time. Your phone went off.

It was a text from him but you just ignored it.

You lifted the razor up against your wrist. And with one swipe blood came gushing out of you.

You didn't try to stop it. You wanted to die.

So you just let the darkness eat in on you.