Previously
"I didn't really fall.. Off my stake board" Ethan was now playing with his fingers nervously
"...then what did you do.." Grayson was so confused now
Ethan didn't know what to do
"I ..kind of did it to myself.. Like .. To hurt myself on purpose" Ethan had tears coming down his face again.
Grayson's face started going pale.
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"..what .. W-wait no" Grayson was now the one getting nervous
Ethan lifted up his shirt to show Grayson
"You .. No no no " Grayson got up and pulled Ethan's shirt off. He just stared at the scars on his stomach and near his hips.
Grayson started to tear up.
"Is there anymore..?" He asked. He really didn't want to know the answer to that question
Ethan nodded
Grayson sat back down on the bed
Ethan pulled down his pajama pants reveling his thighs. Grayson looked at them for a minute then put his face in his hands. Ethan didn't know if he was crying or just sitting there
Till he heard the sniffs and seen a few tears. Grayson was defiantly crying
"..gray" Ethan said now with tear on his face. Grayson stood up and hugged Ethan not saying anything
"Why.." Was all that Grayson asked
"I don't know... I feel like everything that goes wrong is my fault... I hate everything about myself .. My body, my style, my voice, the way I look, how I act, .. I just hate it all" Ethan explained and then stuffed his face in Grayson's shoulder
"..obviously no one else hates you like that tho.. Alex loves you the way you are.. mom does, Cam does, dad does, I do... We all love you for the way you look and the way you act" Grayson was staring at the dresser now trying to stop crying
"But Cameron and mom both think I'm the annoying one.." Ethan didn't move his head
"That's means your more out going then me.. Your more hyper and playful and talkative then me.. Like way more" Grayson smiled
Ethan didn't say anything
"And who cares that they say that.. Just... I can't lose you E.. You're my best friend and I don't know what I would do without you.." Grayson said more small tears coming down his face.
"Show me what you used to do this" Grayson said pulling back and wiping his tears.
Ethan walked to the bathroom and opened his cabinet grabbing the blade from the place he hid it. He handed it to Grayson
"That's it ?" He asked looking at the small blade with some dry blood on it
"Well .. I some times use moms or cams razor when they come over .." Ethan said he looked down at his scars
"Well.. I'm flushing this and from now on I am keeping the closest eye on you" Grayson said showing the blade to Ethan
"What no " Ethan said looking worried at the blade
"Why Ethan, this isn't good for you ... You could go to deep and actually kill yourself as if we don't do this now it could get worse.. You'll have more scars and maybe even try other things to hurt yourself .. Ethan seriously I can't lose you and you know that okay.. So we are flushing this thing and we will have to talk to mom and cameron and even dad to make sure you never do this again" Grayson walked over by the toilet
Ethan turn towards him and watch as he held his blade over the toilet.
".. Okay ... But can the talk with mom, dad and Cam wait .. I mean I wasn't even ready to tell u yet" Ethan said and he sat on the counter by the toilet
"Yeah we can when your ready" Grayson said
"Okay" he said putting his hands in his lap
"Kay .. You wanna flush it ? I'll drop it in and u flush it" Grayson asked sitting on the edge of the tub
Ethan nodded
Grayson dropped in the blade and Ethan looked in at it .. He was kind of hurt .. He wanted it back.
"You okay?" Grayson asked looking at Ethan worried
"Yeah .. Yeah I'm fine" Ethan said and he put his hand on the handle. He slowly pushed it down and the water swirled around in the toilet bowl the water drained out taking his precious blade with it and as it filled up with new water.he wished getting rid of his feelings would be that easy.
"Okay .. Let's go to bed now" Grayson said walking out of then bathroom
"Grayson" Ethan said still not moving
Grayson stopped and turned around
"Yeah" he asked
"...do u think I'll ever get better ... Like .. The voices will ever go away .. And I'll stop wanting to hurt myself ..? " Ethan turned around looking back at Grayson
Grayson thought for a minute
Then walked over to Ethan
"I don't know .. But I promise that I will try my hardest to help you with it .. I'll do whatever it takes to get these terrible things out of your head" Grayson said rubbing Ethan's hair
Ethan laughed
"Okay .. Thanks Gray" he said
"No problem" Grayson said and was gonna walk back out the bathroom when Ethan started talking again
"Grayson .. Two more things .. One can I sleep in your room tonight .. I don't know why but when I do sleep in there I feel ... Safer I guess" Ethan tried to explain.. He just didn't want to be alone but he also didn't want to ask Grayson to sleep in Ethan's bed with him
"Yeah of course E" Grayson said
"Thanks and uh the second thing was just that your the best brother I could ask for " Ethan said smiling for real
"Why thanks " Grayson said in the weirdest voice causing both of them to laugh
"But you are too I couldn't ask for a better one" Grayson said after finishing laughing. Ethan then jumped off the counter
"Last one to their bed has to make breakfast in the morning" Ethan said and ran to Grayson's room
"What but I always make breakfast anyways" Grayson complained as he walked out of the bathroom and turned the lights off closing the door
"Okay fine I'll make it" Ethan yelled from his bed in Grayson's room
"Yess" Grayson said and walked in the room.
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I'm starting to pay more attention to this story then i am to my Grethan one-shots cuz idk I'm just really into this book myself. But hope you all enjoyed this chapter and I'll see you next chapter.
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FanficEthan Dolan is not how you think he is. He is depressed and scared, he cuts and tries not to eat and the hardest part is trying to hid it from his brother Grayson and his other friends. But once he forgets to cover his scars and once he ends up in t...
