Losing them and finding her.

Chapter 1

Chapter 1

Emily's POV

"Nooo!!" I scream. I hear my mom's footsteps down the hall, in a matter of seconds she swings the door open and opens the light. I can see a blurry figure in front if me due to the crying.

"It's okay, Em. Don't worry it's just a bad dream."

"No, mom. I saw him in the car, dead. I could see his bloody face." i cry

" Don't worry. just a nightmare."

Mom tries to comfort me but it's not working at all. You obviously have no idea what's going on.

*Flashback*

It all started yesterday morning...

I was writing my diary at home alone with my dad then i hear him screaming in the phone: " ANDY? ANDY? Are you sure? No that can't be right. I can't believe it"

I understood right away what was going on. Andy was my dad's best friend since high school. He has 2 sons; Mike and Tom. Mike was my age you could say he was a real hottie and Tom was 3 years younger. I wasn't really close to Tom but me and mike were really close. We spent our childhood together but now we've drifted apart but i always make call and make sure they're alright. Uncle Andy also has a really pretty wife. They were pretty much my second family.

After he hung up. He started crying. Now i was sure that what's on my mind was true. I felt a tear drop then i ran to my room got my razor and started cutting. Dad called my mom cause she was out with my little sister Milly swimming. She answered right away. I could hear my mom scream through the phone.

UNCLE ANDY WAS DEAD!!

No that can't be right. He was like my second dad!! I had a break down and memories started flowing in front of me like a movie. That wasn't all then he said that T-Tom also died.

FUCK my life i wanted to die right now on the spot.

"Please tell that's a joke, please!!" i cried louder.

*flashback ends*

Today's Saturday but no i can't take all that in. I wasn't ready for that. I was already diagnosed with depression a year ago and i stared cutting 5 months ago. I starve myself and do everything that could cross you're mind, you just name it. But i never tried drug and i'm not willing to. I used to smoke but thank god i quitted. I thought of suicide several times before.

No one understands me. I feel insecure about the way i look and my weight.

I can't feel anything right now but emptiness!

First thing crossed my mind Mike! How was he? How's he doing?

My mom came and she went with my dad to the hospital but i wasn't allowed to go. I literally begged but no luck. Mom promised that i'll go see him when he gets better.

"Mom please take me with you! I miss him so much and you know how much i love him, please."

"Em, he's not doing good now so when he gets better i promise you'll visit him."

My mom leaves with my dad wearing black and crying. She's been crying all day long.

They've been like family and it's like losing a family member.

Mike just lost his brother and father.

Jut to be specific the best father in the world.

Uncle Andy was the best. He used to take me to the park and get me ice- cream.

*Flashback*

I was only seven back then and i had to do an operation. I was so scared and worried that i'd die. i didn't really understand what i had but it was serious.

"Sunshine, you'll be alright. Don't worry i'm here." Uncle Andy said not leaving my hand. Since he was a doctor he was allowed to stay with me during the surgery even though he wasn't the surgery doctor.

He started telling me about when i was 1 year old and i pushed Mike down the stairs and that i laughed so hard when he fell. He was trying to comfort me.

-After the surgery-

"Aye, how's my sunshine doing?" He asked. I just smiled i was to weak to answer. He kissed me on the forehead and just then the door opened and i could see mike carrying a present and a ballon that says "Get Well Soon". Aww how sweet!

"Emilyyy" Mike shouted.

"Shhhh, not so loud she's tired" said Uncle Andy.

"Sorry. I just missed her so much."He hugged me for about 5 minutes and didn't let go. He gave me the present and believe it or not he got me the new Barbie that i wanted since a long time ago. I gave him a bone-crushing hug and thanked him.

*flashback ends*