Losing them and finding her.

Chapter 10

-Emily's POV-







I tried calling Mike but he wouldn't answer.




I started getting worried. He's not mentally stable right now. What if he gave up what if he decided to give up and go to his dad and brother?







I wasn't mentally stable either. But he was way much worse. I still cry every single second when he isn't around. I mean why would he just open his eyes and in a second he wouldn't find his dad or brother. Why? why? why?










It's really hard for me. Really. I feel empty. A constant feeling of numbness. I feel lost. A part of me is gone. Long gone. I'll never get to see them again.




NEVER!




That thought just kills me from inside. It shatters me. Breaks me.




I don't want him to go. I don't. He's been the best thing in my life. I mean i've been crushing on him since pre-school.







After all everything happens for a reason, right?

Maybe,maybe,maybe.







I won't let him go. He made me the happiest person alive.







I grabbed purse and helmet and ran to my backyard. Got my bike and started peddling as fast as i can.







I let my bike fall and entered his house. Empty. No one was there. I sat on the couch to catch my breath and i looked around the living room.







And there it was. The picture. Our picture. It had all 8 of us laughing and smiling. No fake smiles. Milly,mom,dad,Andy, Anne, Tom, Mike and I. We were all happy. They were still here. This photo must be 2-3 years old.

Then another photograph right beside it. A picture of Andy and Tom.







I felt a tear running down my face. Then another and another. I fell on the ground and started crying. I need them right now. I need to talk to them. To tell them that i'll take care of Mike. That i'll try to be strong for him. Just for him. I'll try to smile more frequently. That they were one the most important things in my life. I won't give up cause hod sent me Mike and he gave me hope.







I was standing in front of there grave. And there was a black figure sitting there on the grass.




"Mike?"




"Em?"




I ran to him and hugged him to tight. Don't cry i told myself.




I pulled away and looked him in the eye. His deep ocean blue eyes.




Somehow when i looked in his eyes, i saw Andy and Tom for about a split second.




Knowing that there presence was still with me, just made me smile.




Yet knowing that there real selves were no longer here, made me feel... slightly empty. Like i'd lost a piece of my heart.







But then again there'd be that right person to pick up the pieces.




And i guess that it was Mike, right?







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Sorry guys for this short chapter. It made me cry. I'm also really sorry for the short shitty chapter. I'll make it up to you later.










Thank you.




I love you all!







-the smiley.