Insane ➸ Shawmila

C h a p t e r o n e

HOLY SHIT my writing was horrible and tbh idk if it's any better right now but I really need to edit this cringe filled story.

The smell of smoke filled the air as I walked down the street. I had been buying a few things from the drugstore that was across from the motel I was staying in. Exhaustion is what I felt from all the running the hiding and the crying. It had been a long day for me and I couldn't wait to get back to the motel and lay down on the bed that was extremely uncomfortable but also better than nothing. I dug my hands into the pockets of the oversized sweater I had on, it wasn't something you'd wear to keep you warm considering it had a few holes, it was old and worn out but I didn't exactly have anything else. The sound of footsteps suddenly filled my ears. I was paranoid. What if it was him? He had been calling, texting, and leaving me voicemails that sounded more like threats than anything else. I wouldn't know what to do If they found me but I was willing to stay hidden for a while and maybe move far far away from here. The rest of the way to the motel was me turning my head back every five seconds and trying to go as fast as I could.

The Next Day

You know that feeling right after you wake up when you're worry free and you feel so at peace with everything? That's what I felt when I woke up. I expected to smell bacon, and blueberry pancakes I thought I'd be waking up on my comfortable bed but instead I awoke to the smell of dirtiness. The bed was far from comfortable the mattress felt like stone and the pillow was probably filled with newspaper. I really can't stay here any longer. I'd have to find a better place far away from here.
I had packed all my stuff which actually wasn't a lot. I'd left most of my stuff at my house that now belonged to the guy I despise. I showered, brushed my teeth and changed. I paid for my stay that was only 19 dollars cheap right? Should I even complain about how horrible the place was when that's all I paid? The lady behind the counter handed me back the change from the 20 dollar bill I gave her, I thanked her and quickly left the shitty motel that I would definitely not miss.
I had been looking for about an hour now and I couldn't find a place sure I could call one of my family members and ask them if I could crash with them but then again they'd probably say not since I never kept in touch with them. I had the money to stay at a normal hotel that actually looked decent but so far I hadn't found one. I wasn't planning on looking for more than an hour so I decided to have lunch.
The burgers I got from the cheap fast food restaurant were the best or maybe they were the worst but I didn't care I was starving. I had eaten two already, skipping breakfast isn't the best idea. Then I started thinking of what I could do. I was so frustrated I felt like I was about to burst out in tears. I wish my mother were here to help me but she didn't want to hear from me because I was so disrespectful and rebellious before I left. Im only 18 I had moved out at 17. I thought I was ready to be on my own with my boyfriend but I never really thought this would happen I never pictured myself in a few years homeless nor did I ever look past our "loving" relationship that could've ended at any moment. I had money a lot of money and yes I still have a lot but not enough to buy a house and pay for bills. A tear rolled down my cheek while I reminisced on the past and think about what my future could have been. My thoughts are cut off when I hear one of the most obnoxious laugh ever ring through my ears. I shift my eyes towards the the group of people coming into the restaurant. All I notice is how they all looked happy and not as miserable as me and I couldn't stand it I hated them for not being as sad as I was.
The bathroom was the only place I could stay in while I waited for those preppy boys to leave. You might think there isn't a reason for me to do that but there is. When they were done paying for there food, I was about to get up to throw my leftovers away which happened to be when they passed by me. Feeling a foot get in the way of mine I fell to the floor groaning from the pain that struck my knees. o I opened my eyes I saw one of them offering me a hand while the others tried not to laugh. What was so funny? I have no idea but I didn't take the guys hand I was embarrassed and I could feel my face heating up. Instead of yelling at them and having a major fit, I went straight to the bathroom and that's how I'm here. Why couldn't I be smart enough to leave instead of coming here? I heard the door opening and the sound of laughs getting further away knowing that was my cue to leave I did and I wish I hadn't because I noticed one of those guys from that group sitting on the table. I was confused why was he still here? I tried getting out of the restaurant without being seen but failed miserably. I saw him walking towards me all while trying to get my attention.  I tried ignoring him but he caught up. Feeling a tap on my shoulder I turned around immediately turning red as I remembered how I fell in front of this guy and his friends. "Umm I wanted to say sorry about tripping you earlier it wasn't on purpose I just didn't see you" he says finally looking up at my blushing face and grinning as he notices. "Oh that, it's fine don't worry about it" I say not meeting his eyes. He chuckles "are your knees ok I saw you holding on to them in pain did they get injured?" "Did you really stay and wait for me just to apologize? " I ask ignoring his questions wondering why he was so concerned. "No actually I totally forgot you were here but I'm just waiting for my friends to come back" I start blushing again realizing I actually never stopped oh of course he forgot it wasn't a big deal. " oh well thanks for asking I have to go now bye" I quickly open the door to leave hoping he'd stop me and talk to me. That's all I needed right now someone to talk to and someone who could possibly help me.