Casual Affair

Chapter 10 (blurry visions)

Mike's pov

Vincent and I drove to the pizzeria. I was tired as fuck... again. Man I should stop letting other people steal my sleep. I was lost in thoughts.

Do I like him? Am I gay? Do I love doll? Am I bi? Is this just a dream and I'm about to wake up? Whould my parents accept me beeing gay? Whould my friends accept me? Whould I accept myself? How whould the marriage look like? Whould one of us wear a dress? What flavor of cake would be there? Where would we marry?
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What am I thinking about?
Seriously! Mike get your shit together. That's not working out that way. You're still with doll together, you two have just a little relationship problem but that can be fixed, right?
After work I'm going to tell her that I'm sorry. Even if it wasn't my fault. I'll hope she'll accept this.

I realized we weren't driving anymore and that Vincent got out of the car.
"Come on. My little day dreamer."
He said as he opened my car door for me.
"Don't call me that and thanks." I got out of the car and into the building. Vincent was right behind me.

"Do you have something to do after work?" He asked me.
"Yes. I have to apologize myself to doll."
"But it wasn't your fault."
"I know but I'm not a snitch. And if I would tell her that story she probably wouldn't believe me."
"Ok..." he frowned. "I just thought we could eat breakfast together."
I smiled at him to cheer him up.
"I would love to do that but not today. I'm sorry."
"No Problem."

We went into the office and sat in our chairs. I looked at the clock. 11:45pm.
Wow we have much time until our shift starts. What could we do?
My thoughts got cut of by a Vincent hugging me from behind.
"Vince? What are you doing?"
"Not much. And you?"
"You should get away from me!"
"Oh! That sounds fun. Can I do this with you." His sentence dripped from sarcasm.
"Vincent just let go."
"Never!"
"Vince, ple-"
"No"

I gave up. It was impossible to get him away from me. He snuggled his head into my neck. I felt his warm breath even through this sweater. I just leaned back in my seat and let him hug me.

It was impossible to get rid of him anyway so, why crying about it?
Also it was kinda calming. I don't know why but I feel so save in his arms. If I would've to discribe heaven, it would be this.

I signed and smiled. No one can see us anyways so, why rejecting? It's too comfortable.
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Miiiiike! What did I said? You still have doll. It doesn't make a difference if someone sees this or not. An affair is still an affair. No dibate!

It was too late to struggle anyway, cause the bell to start our shift rang. He quickly placed a kiss on my cheek and went away, back to his chair. My face heat up. I'm screaming inside.

What should I think? What am I allowed to think? I think it's too late anyway. I cheated on doll. I'm sorry for her. Should I tell her? I think a lie wouldn't hurt...

I hid my face in my hands. I need a break from this world.
"So cute~" Vincent's voice broke the silence.
I looked up and realized that I should work. I took the tablet and looked through the cameras. My vision got blurry from tiredness. I tried to blink it away but my normal vision lasted only a few seconds until it got crappy again.

Vincent must've seen my struggle and wanted to take the tablet from me.
"It's fine I gonna do another night."
"No you worked through the last one and you didn't sleeped last night too."
"But I'm in a better condition than you are. Please let me help you out."

His voice is so heartwarming. And his face is only centimeters away. Should I...

Fuck it!

I slammed my lips on his. He didn't expected that. The look on his face was priceless. After the first shock he kissed back.

What am I doing? I'm loosing control...