Hate Being A Secret

Part 1

I this came from softball practice, all I need right now is a cold shower then I can start studying.
My coach makes the practices extra harder on me, because I arrived two times in a row late for practice and at the end he gives me a speech about how to be a better captain so that I lead the team to the US university top 16 softball championship and I'm also in the national senior woman softball team so my life is busy.

Before I shower want to go on instagram. The first photo that came up is my secret girlfriend the popstar Camila Cabello and in the photo she is posting with singer Shawn Mendes.

I wish I'm the one that is posting with her and that her fans knows I'm her girlfriend, but she keeps on declining coming out feels like she is ashamed of me. There are rumors that she and Shawn are dating my jealously rise everytime , but try to hide it. Sometimes I think we must this break up, because I can't handle the pain she causes me everytime she goes out with people holding hands especially with him. I love her,but I don't think she loves me anymore also she's hiding stuff from me. I know she is cheating on me with him, because when we chat I can hear his voice in the background and when we skype the bed is most of the time messy so I had it, I need to break up with her when we chat again, because I deserve better treatment and a person that hasn't have to hide me.

Thinking about her there's a skype notification on my computer from her and this is the time to end our
5 year relationship.

Hey,babe...