Hurt

Chapter 5- Darkness

Ashton POV *TRIGGER WARNING*

Mom was trying to stand up for us and herself while dad  hit her and and insulted her. My brother and I huddled in the corner listening to the screams and the sound of glass breaking. We were young and scared. Suddenly dad turned his attention to me. He stumbled over and picked me up by my collar while my brother watched in horror.

"And what are you looking at?!"

He sneered while I gasped for air. My mother ran over while screaming.

"James leave him alone. Please."

My father slammed me against the wall and I slowly started to loose consciousness. Despite everything fading I could still here my father grabbing my terrified mother and shouting.

"I'll teach you to talk back to me woman!"

I woke up startled. My sheets were everywhere. What a terrible night. I got out of bed and went into the kitchen to grab some cold water. The water was somewhat soothing. I slowly walked back to my room. It was 10:30am and I still wasn't feeling it so I just laid in bed thinking about my life.

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The sound of someone pounding on the door woke me up abruptly. I put a pillow over my head and tried to go back to sleep. No such luck. Kai started talking loudly through the door.

"Ash it's 7pm. Are you good man?

I was shocked. I slept until 7pm?! I didn't feel like shouting a response so I just turned on my side and tried to resume sleep.

"Ash don't make me come in there."

I wanted him to come in. Something was terribly wrong with me I just knew it.

"I'm coming in dude."

I heard the sound of the door being half destroyed and then the creaking of my bedroom door opening. Despite everything I still kept my eyes closed. Like I said I wasn't feeling  it today.

"Are you okay?!"

Keeping my eyes closed I half mumbled.

"Yea"

I could feel Kai's suspicious gaze peering into me.

"I doubt that. You slept the whole day."

I opened my eyes. 

"I was tired."

He frowned at me and then ran his fingers through his hair letting out an exasperated sigh.

"You're pretty damn hard headed"

I yawned before replying

"I know."

He paused thoughtfully for a few minutes before offering

"We could go to the arcade or something, i'll let you beat me"

I let out a weak laugh

"Nah and in your dreams dude."

He shoved me playfully.

"Why not? How's that in my dreams?"

I gave him a pathetic half smile. 

"Just not feeling it and you know i'm the king of the arcade."

He laughed.

"Whatever dude"

Just then the doorbell rang and Kai turned to the door.

"I'll get it"

A few minutes later and angry looking Emily stormed into my room.

"Ashton why weren't you answering my messages?!"

I sighed. I really wasn't in the mood for social interaction.

"Sorry I was sleeping."

She sneered

"Until 7pm. Yea right."

I sat up and grabbed my phone. Sure enough she had sent me over 6 messages throughout the day.

"It's true babe. I'm sorry I just wasn't feeling great."

She flipped her hair but appeared slightly calmer.

"Well next time please try to text me back?"

"Of course babe"

She smiled

"So how have you been doing?"

"Not that good"

She looked at me suddenly full of concern which sent me on a guilt trip.

"Why baby what's wrong?"

I looked down unable to meet her concerned gaze.

"Nothing just sick I guess. I'll be fine."

She hugged me and gave me a quick kiss before  standing up

"Well babe I just wanted to check on you. I have to go visit family. Maybe when you feel better we can do something?"

I smiled 

"Of course babe. Love you..."

She blushed and blew me a kiss

"Love you too babe"

With that she walked out of my room closing the door behind her. I was just about to try and get some more sleep when I got an incoming call from my bro. I picked it up.

"Hey Felix."

"Hey Ash, you good?"

I sighed. Why was everyone asking me the same questions? Was it that obvious I wasn't okay?

"Yea. You?"

"I'm good. So listen, I heard about your talk with dad..."

I felt hurt and anger welling up inside of me at the mention of the topic.

"I'm okay, he's full of shit. Not like I believed what he said or anything..."

There was a silence on the other end of the line before Felix finally answered

"Well I just want you to know that everything he said is complete bullshit and mom and I love you and hate knowing he talks to you like that."

The anger took over me.

"That's nice to say Felix but why don't you stop him or at least talk to him about it? Or are you too afraid of him out casting you too?

There was an audible sigh heard on the other end.

"It's not like that Ash..."

"Then tell me what it's fucking like because I don't understand why you hate me so much. It hurts man it really fucking hurts to know your family wants you dead."

Before he could get another word in I hung up and turned off my phone. I wasn't dealing with this shit anymore. I pulled up my sleeve and checked my scars. They were doing better. I hadn't cut in a while. That was going to change. I pulled out my razor and started cutting. It had been months since i'd last done this. I was doing good but now I wasn't so sure. I carved slowly on my wrist

Worthless

I  then took my sleeping pills out of my drawer and popped two in my mouth. Before I drifted off all I could think about was what was now permanently on my arm

Worthless

Hey guys, sorry for not updating in a while. I needed inspiration because I want to keep you guys into it and not make it seem like i'm dragging the story lol.

Is this going where you thought? What do you think will happen next?

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