What it's like to be free

Hey guys

Heya :) I know it's been a while since I last posted on this account and don't worry it's not because anything bad happened and I appreciate all the supportive messages you guys have sent me! The truth is, as most of you know I relapsed in autumn of 2015 and this continued until the summer of 2016 when eventually, with the support from my eating disorder team, I began to try recovery. It's been very up and down and by no means easy and in fact I did end up relapsing a little over December and January (but that was also mostly because I fell into a depressive episode and was very close to being admitted into hospital last month). But otherwise I have completely managed to turn my life around (as some of you know that follow me on my recovery instagram and if you don't then feel free to message me asking for the username) and am now on track to go to a prestigious university and achieve good A-level results and I'm independent and can drive and am surrounded by the most amazing and loyal friends I could ever ask for and I'm just really happy in my life and in myself. Like yeah sure there's still bad days and I am no where near recovered from anorexia or any other mental illnesses, but I'm getting there considering last summer I was very underweight and was told that this illness would kill me if i didn't sought it out and was told I wouldn't finish year12 let alone go to uni. But here I am

And today I logged back into this account today and realised how much I miss writing so I've decided to start putting poems up, not always well written as I haven't probably written in about a year but none the less I'm going to try.

I hope your all okay and feel free to message me anytime, and if I haven't replied to your message/comment from the past year then I'm very sorry but I have a quite a lot to get through and I will reply very shortly!

Belle
Xoxo