Edrecovery Stories

A true story about losing myself to food, guilt, control and slowly finding my way back.

~𝗶'𝗹𝗹 𝗯𝗲 h𝗲𝗿𝗲 𝘄𝗶𝘁𝗵 𝘆𝗼𝘂 𝗮𝗹𝗹 𝘁𝗵𝗲 𝘄𝗮𝘆𝘀 𝗶𝗻 𝘆𝗼𝘂𝗿 𝘀𝗲𝗹𝗳-𝗹𝗼𝘃𝗲 𝗷𝗼𝘂𝗿𝗻𝗲𝘆 ❤️🌻

'But a black young girl of God cannot get Anorexia or mental illnesses-. This is my story. You probably have struggled like how I have too. These were my coping mechanisms. This was a battle. A battle you may have experienced as well. This was ongoing. This still is ongoing. I journaled my experience with anorexia on the bad and good days and how I felt God with me along the journey. I wanted to find my worth and identity again. God and I wanted to write this book to expose how anyone or any race and gender could struggle with mental health. This book encourages some specific readers to recover from any mental illness with professional help and guidance from God. I invited God to help me recover and he started working; I had relapses, obstacles but he still stood by my side with his mercy, patience and grace. In addition, this book could also be read by those who don't struggle with any mental illnesses but want to gain understanding on what it's like for someone who does and how God is real. This is my life with Anorexia and depression as a Christian who has God on her side. However I believe, 'What God cannot do, Does not Exist'- NSPPD. I aim to update this story until I heal fully. Will I ever heal? TW: WIEIAD INCLUDED SOMETIMES. LITTLE CALORIES MENTIONED BUT NO SEPCIFIC NUMBERS.

It's for everyone. Both those that have already tried recovery and those who are still fighting. I'm here to support. All of you, all of us. Because we all matter. I'm not a professional. Not a psychologist, psychiatrist. Just an ed survivor, writing from lived experience. Skip if you find these triggering - I completely understand. I believe that we all deserve support, and much better than the world that portrays serious diseases as "success stories" or "becoming healthier, prettier." We can do better. In short, this is a series about eating disorders and everything related to them: relapses, beginnings, the process, healing, society's influence, and recovery. I write about things that affect me as a person who has, and still is struggling with this little trap in her mind that says to give up. And that's why I'm creating this. We need something else besides the constant skinny obsession, don't we? Even if you decide not to read any of the chapters - I get it. If you don't agree with my point of view that I share in this project, that's alright. I'm not trying to convince anyone to my mind. I'm trying to let people with invisible, underrated struggles be heard, seen. And you're valid. You're enough. There're more of us. We are no longer silent. We're here for ourselves - that's already a big step toward healing. I'm not going to tell you that recovery is the same for everyone. I'm not going to tell you that people won't comment on your appearance. I'm not going to tell you that you'll always love yourself after recovery. But I am going to, at least try, to convince you that being alive is worth more than looking a certain way. You think feeling your bones is hot? You know what's more? BEING ALIVE. Healing is a process. And it's hard. But as long as you are alive, you always have a chance. I'm not one of the perfectly recovered ones. I see this trap. I've lived in it. I still do. But I'm not afraid of speaking about it - until someone finally hears me.

This isn't a pro-recovery or an anti-recovery thing, it's just a story. My story. This is the ins and outs of my battles with anorexia or whatever it is that I have.

A story of a girl in treatment for anorexia and depression at Children's Medical Center

The marginally less sad sequel to Capricorn's flowers. Slightly sub-par dark poetry + prose

A personal journal of my struggles, fights, and recovery attempts regarding to my eating disorders. This may be triggering.

Since for three years restrictive EDs have consumed her life, Madison (now a senior), whose identity was long built on her perfect grades, achievement, superiority, and body, must rebuild and reorient herself before adulthood drops. (And it's possible; she's at last fully committed to the cause and on her way. This is just a testimony to that.) This is one of Madison's journals, providing a 30-day glimpse into a vital stage of her ED recovery process from the moment she became open to letting go of weight and restriction as sources of esteem. It opens at her lowest, most pivotal point and progresses as she does. But old habits provide comfort, and so Madison does fall back into them but continuously reminds herself why she is bothering to change: because there is a life for her worth living--now and ahead.

*ED TRIGGER WARNING!* From the POV of a child. Emily is best friends with her new doll, Ana. Emy (Emily) suffers from Anorexia Nervosa, but her nobody knows this. Emily's mom thinks that Emy is a bad child, so she is constantly doing things that stress Emy out, making Emy think she is doing something wrong. All Emy wants is to be perfect, for her mom and for Ana-her doll that Emily uses to personify her disorder and the voice in her head, telling to be perfect, telling her to be skinny, no matter the cost.

These are poems that I have written throughout my recovery from various mental illnesses

we all want to be pretty. some want it more. T.W. DISCUSSES AN ED (DOES NOT GLORIFY OR ENCOURAGE IT)

A collection of poems and liquorice-tinged thoughts.

Gretchen Wyatt is a 17 year old who is dealing with Bulimia.Gretchen is 5 foot 6 inches tall and weighs a whopping 92 pounds on a good day, and 96 pounds on a bad day. She is in love with Harley Cameron, who just so happens to be her older brother's best friend. During the summer she is sent to The Hills Residential Eating Disorder Recovery Center. This book focuses on a teenage girl name Gretchen, who is forced into treatment for her eating disorder by her father during the summer. She makes friends with some of the other patients, (and enemies with others maybe? I haven't decided yet..) and decided that she wants to recover and be happy, all throughout the book she is chasing after her childhood crush Harley. I'm not the best writer and I also mainly write at 12 am-5 am so bear with me. I have never finished more than a page when I try to write a book / novel / whatever, so hopefully I'll finish this.

her name was ana. she said she would make me beautiful and people would like me more. she lied.

Lexi. Shes a girl with a sad past. Yet shes a straight A student who always does what she is supposed to. Mason. He is a party animal who has gone out with millions of girls slept with them too and hes consisered the bad boy in his school. But when Her best friend ends up Dating him AND getting hurt afterwards. Lexi wants revenge... Will she get her revenge?? Or will she see the real side of him And end up falling for him...

Living in a mind where everything is what it isn't. Fighting the day ahead. Fearing what is to come. For the world to understand the horrific scene that never seems to end for someone dealing with a mental illness (or multiple), see through the eyes of the prisoner. **Please do not read if you are sensitive to any of these topics. If you are in recovery please continue to work forward, and do remember why you started your recovery journey to begin with.

Nova Harper is a 16 year old girl who just broke up with her boyfriend but he doesn't take the hint. He won't leave her alone and is acting like they never broke up. Nova is over it and wants him to leave her alone. She is dealing with her own issues and is starting her junior year of high school. Lorenzo Frazier is a 16 year old boy who has a crazy ex girlfriend and a wedding that he needs a plus one for. His parents think he is a player and can't commit to one girl. But when he sees Nova in the hallway trying to get her ex away from her he steps in to help knowing what exes are like. But surprises himself when he offers to help her by fake dating to get Jonah away from her. Will there plan work or will both exes get the better of them? What will happen along the way?

In which a nineteen year old college freshman struggles to recover from an eating disorder she's tried hiding from her loved ones for three years. Eden Michelson is a perfectionist, some may say, even a control freak. She feels the need to have her life go exactly the right way, except her life doesn't ever go as planned. The one thing she knows she will always have control over is her food intake. So she has taken advantage of that. Three years since she first began restricting, this simple way of gaining control takes over her life and is well on its way of turning deadly. Before more tragedy strikes, Eden is admitted into a hospital to recover. TW: This content contains talk of eating disorders that may be triggering for some. Please don't continue reading if you are triggered by mention of weight or eating disorders.

They were soulmates, destined to be together. just not in this lifetime. When Sofia's father decides he wants to make a deal with the devil, Sofia is beyond pissed, as she has to deal with the consequences. Lorenzo Carter. The most arrogant man heard of. Two complete same souls. Stubborn, Violent, always put's there family before them and hates it when things don't go there way,what could possible go wrong when they join forces to take down the Mexican Empire.