The Foundation

Chapter Twenty-Seven

I freeze. What does he mean he can't do this anymore? He is doing fine, he can't go back to Erudite.

"Listen Cat, I know this is really confusing right now."

"Why would you leave me? Why would you leave us?"

"I don't want to leave you Cat, I don't. But don't lie, you saw me trying to shoot a gun, I failed badly. You didn't miss. You are designed to be a Dauntless, and I............" He freezes. "Am an Erudite."

"Caleb-----

"Cat, I have to go back."

"Why?"

"Erudite is my home."

"Your home? I thought that you were on my side. I thought we would be together forever."

"We will, I promise. After this war stuff all ends."

"Now what are you going to do? Help the war?"

"I don't know Cat, I don't know right now."

"What if I die in the war?"

"Cat, I-----

"No, what if I actually die. You wouldn't be there. You will be with Jeanine, and for what, for power?"

"Cat, it won't be that way, I promise. You won't die. They won't kill you."

"What are you even going to when you get to Erudite? Jeanine is not going to be happy."

I feel tears streaming down my face. He said Erudite was torture. Everything he has said and done to me was a scam, like a joke.

"When I get there, I'll tell them that you and Jess died in the process, something like you got shot or something."

"You're a coward," I say with more tears rolling down my face. "I thought you loved me."

"I do Cat, I am so freaking in love with you. I will make sure you're safe, I promise."

He leans in and kisses me for a second, and then walks away, leaving me in tears. I'm not sure if I believe him or not, will he keep me safe? He doesn't know I'm Divergent, so he probably thinks I won't get killed.

I walk back in the dungeon and I drop to my knees.

Everyone, Jessica, Teddy, and Tris, crowd around me.

"What happened? Tell us," Tris says.

"Caleb...........he........, he is going back to Erudite. He already left, dressed from head to toe, in Erudite clothes."

"What!"

"You got to be kidding me," Teddy says.

Jessica just stands there, in shock.

"I don't know what happened to him. One day we love each other, the next he leaves me. I don't get him sometimes!"

"Cat, listen to me," Tris says, making me look at her. "I know my brother more than anyone. Don't worry about him. He won't let the person that he loves get killed."

He doesn't love me. You wouldn't leave someone like that. Love is like a game, sometimes you win really good, but  unlucky so I knew it wouldn't work out.

She doesn't know I'm Divergent. She thinks I'll be safe. It probably crosses her mind, but I can't guess what she thinks.

"What if I do get killed? What would he do?"

"Cat, you won't die," she says. "I know you won't. You are so strong. You won't die."

She sounds like my mother trying to make sure I am okay. Her Abnegation is showing.

"Thanks Tris," I say with a sniff.

"No problem. He loves you Cat. He really does. He talks about you everyday. I am mad at him too, but I am sure he won't break up with the person he loves.

I get up, and walk out the door for some fresh air, if you count underground as fresh air. I feel myself heading to the Chasm, but it just makes me think of our first kiss. I love him, I really do, but I can't believe him.

Does he even know the way back? I hope so.

I decide to go to the Chasm anyway, even though it makes me think of him. I look at the water for a while, not knowing what to do, or what to think. I then heat footsteps beside me, but I don't look up. They place their hand on my shoulder. I don't want to see anyone, but all I can do is look down.

"Hey," they say, and I know it is Jessica.

"Hey."

"Do you have any idea why he left without saying anything to everyone else?"

"He didn't give much of an explanation," I say. "He just said that he was doing bad in Dauntless and Erudite is his home."

I finally look up at her puzzled face.

"You can't be serious," she says. "I thought he said he hated Erudite."

"I don't know what his way of thinking is, but it is messed up."

"Did you guys even kiss?"

I feel my cheeks go red. "Maybe."

"I knew it!"

I laugh a little but it is still one of the worst days of my life. Can I forgive him? Maybe. I don't really know. I can tell Jessica is upset, but I am much more filled with sadness.

"Lets grab something to eat," Jessica says. "It will take your mind of things. There is a good restaurant in the Pit. I'll grab everyone."

I watch as she leaves and comes back with Teddy, Tris, and Four. I am guessing Four knows what happened by now, from the look of sympathy on his face. I don't want to eat. I don't want to be with everyone, but I'll go so I don't upset everyone.

We go into whatever restaurant Jessica picked. Everyone talks about how they are doing but I stay silent. I decide to get a steak with a baked potato and green beans. I barely eat any of it. I feel tired and nauseous. Jessica keeps telling me to eat more and I try too. I manage to eat the streak and half of the potato. Four pays for it all and I thank him and I go back to the dungeon.

I sit there, alone. I am glad for that. I don't want to be by people right now.

It is dark out now, but I am not sure what time it is.

A lot of things can happen in a day.

You can learn how to shoot a gun.......

You can go out with friends.........

You can be heartbroken by the love of your life.

I take a blanket and a pillow out, and I fall asleep with his name in my head.......

Caleb.