When You Least Expect It (Larry Stylinson)

Chapter 19

TJ kept his eyes on his boyfriend next to him, the older lad seeming like he was lost in his own little world as he held Amelia and smiled down at her.

He knew this was something he could never get used to, the way Cody would look at their little girl, how he would hold her like she was the most precious thing in the world, and truth be told to the both of them she was. Even if their baby girl still wakes them up three or four times a night TJ could easily say this has been the best two months of his entire life.

What are you thinking about love?

Cody was quiet for a second, glancing back down at his daughter in his arms and biting his lip. "It'll go alright... Won't it?" he barely whispered, almost unable to pick his head back up to look back at his boyfriend.

And TJ just looked back at him, raising his hands to sign, but stopping himself as he wasn't even sure what he wanted to say. All we can do is hope for the best, he settled on as he offered the older lad a small smile.

At that Cody could just nod, letting out a quiet breath and looking back down to Amelia and running a gentle finger over her tiny hand. At this point he couldn't even say he wanted this surgery for himself, but more for his little girl. As great as these past few months have been with her, how he was doing a lot more and better than he thought he could, Cody always thought he could do more. And not only that, but he just wanted to hear his little girl. He wanted to hear the tiny noises that escaped Amelia when she woke up, or whenever they picked her up and smile at her. But more than anything Cody wanted to hear TJ.

To hear what his boyfriend's voice sounded like, to know the differences between his laughs or if when he was upset or something was bothering him if he talked differently versus when he was just tired.

Sure, Cody knew body language, that's basically how he got by in life since he didn't know tone of voice or anything like that. But that body language could only go so far and he was desperate to know what the world sounded like after living in silence for nearly 20 years.

Babe... TJ got his attention, running a gentle hand down his back and looking at him softly. You know even if the surgery doesn't work you'll still be the amazing person you are... Great boyfriend, father, son, brother, none of that is going to change.

Cody barely found it in himself to nod back at the younger lad before looking back down to Amelia and seeing her bright blue eyes focused right back on him. There was no lying, he was absolutely terrified about this surgery and anyone with eyes could see it, but he couldn't help but want it all to work out.

He knew TJ was right, that even if it didn't work out he'd still be the same person that his family and friends love, but this was just something he really wanted.

Hey... TJ signed, getting Cody's attention again as he saw his thoughts running away from him. Talk to me love, what's on your mind?

"Usual worries," Cody muttered, his boyfriend knowing better than anyone how he felt about the surgery.

TJ let out a small breath, nodding back at him and rubbing his back gently, knowing there were only so many things he could tell the older lad to calm his fears.

"But we should uhm... We should probably get going, it's about that time."

Cody could feel TJ's eyes on him as he stood up from the couch and started to get Amelia settled in her carrier. His little girl was looking right back at him, her bright blue eyes trained on him and a smile coming over her as she felt her daddy running his finger over her hand. And just at that Cody wondered if she was giggling, if she was making any noise at all, and it was the little moments like this that made him want this surgery to work.