Tainted Love (BWS)

Sixty Six.

Violets POV:

I sat up all night googling how common are two miscarriages to one woman, the truth is I wasn't scared of brads reaction, Im scared of loosing another baby, am I even ready to have another baby?

Usually at this level of stress and anxiety I would have a cigarette or speak to Brad but right now I can't do either.

Brad hasn't returned my calls since this morning when he wished my good luck at the doctors, I've messaged the boys and their not with him either.

What if his with someone else? Again.

Oh no go away bad thoughts, that's not Brad anymore.. his changed.

Right?

As if like clock work my doorbell rung, I jumped off the bed and skipped downstairs opening the door to none other then Brad.

Speak of the devil and he shall appear.

"Hey" he breathed out with a smile.

"Where have you been?" I asked as he entered my house holding his rucksack in his hand. "I've been so worried"

"I have something for you" he grabbed my hand and lead me over to the sofa in the living room, sitting us both down.

"What is it?"

"Close your eyes"

"Oh come on! You know I hate surprises!" I whined.

"Exactly, now shut up and close your eyes" he laughed, eventually I obeyed. "Now what do you want more then anything in the world?" He asked.

"Zac Efron covered in chocolate spread" I smiled peeping open eye to see him scowling me and shaking his head, making me laugh.

"No!" He laughed with me. "Think!"

"Erm I don't know! A cat?" I shrugged giggling to myself.

"Hold out your hands"

I held out my hands infront of my chest and felt him place something cold and a little heavy in it.

"Open your eyes"

I opened my eyes to see.. my book?

"What the-"

I flicked through the pages to see it was in fact my book! still perfectly intact! How it has been all these years!

"Brad!" I was totally lost for words. "How did you get it! I- I mean Nathan-" I stopped abruptly as my mind slowly pieced it together. "What did you do?" I smirked folding my arms over my chest.

"I may or may not have paid our friend Nathan a visit"he said gently rubbing his knuckles, I looked down to see they were grazed.

"Jesus" I said quickly jumping up and grabbing a rag and some warm water.

"It's fine honest" he moaned as I started cleaning his knuckles.

"Well this takes me back" I laugh at the situation we seem to always end up in, me tidying up Brads wounds after his fights, usually over me.

"I couldn't let him disrespect you like that and get away with it" he said as I dabbed the warm, damp cotton wool on his knuckles.

"Well as much as I am thankful you got my book back, I don't want you getting yourself hurt or in trouble" I said dumping all the blood stained cotton wool in the bowl of water and putting down on the coffee table.

"It's fine.. you should see the other guy" he joked winking at me with his devilishly handsome smirk.

I rolled my eyes and made my way over to the kitchen sticking the kettle on.

"Oh yeah! So how was the doctors? What'd they say?" He shouted from the kitchen.

I froze in my tracks, do I tell him now?

"Yeah it was fine, just a tummy bug.. should go in a thew days" I lied.

I can't tell him right now, I still need time to think if this is what I want, I can't go through what I went through before.. that was the worst time of my life.

I walked back into the living room with two mugs of tea, seeing Brad flicking through my laptop.

"Stomach bug yeah?" He said without looking up. "Then what is this?" He said standing up holding my laptop to face me showing me and email from the doctors with names of maternity centres they are going transfer me to.

I dropped both mugs letting them both shatter on the floor around my feet.

"Shit" I mumbled under my breath.

"Are you- are you pregnant Vi?" He asked setting down the laptop.

I didn't answer just stared down at the mess I created on the floor.

"This-" he started but I cut him off.

"Look I know it's a shock-"

"This is amazing!" He smiled widely.

"What?"

"This is best news I've ever heard!" He ran over to me wrapping his arms around my body and swinging me as he hugged tightly.

"Wait! Your not mad?"

"Why would I be mad? We're finally gonna have our family Vi" his smile seemed to be growing and growing as he cheered and jumped in excitement.

"I-I"

"Look, I know you might be nervous about this after what happened, but you have nothing to be afraid of your not alone anymore you'll have me by your side every step of the way, like I should have been the first time" he smiled sympathetically at me before placing a soft kiss on my hands.

"Were having a baby!" I cheered with him and hugged him back. Maybe this would be easier then the last time because I have brad, maybe he's right maybe I have nothing to be afraid of as long as I have him I have my strength and I have my courage.

I- We can do this!