Freedom Beyond These Lips

Chapter 9: The Prince Who Saved A Life

    I'd moved out of my mother's house the instant I got out of that hospital. It was only two months later when I'd finally broken off things with my ex-girlfriend, I felt like I was just going on with life, not really being able to enjoy anything. It was a pit of depression that basically had me feeling as if I was just going through the motions of everything.

It wasn't until I'd met Alex, he was charming, sweet, and absolutely hilarious. He always brought a smile to my face. He felt unreal, and too good to be true. On the third day that I knew him, I kissed him. I told him about this tradition I had made up when I was younger, and asked him if he'd like to be apart of it. When he agreed, I pressed my lips to his. He was perfect. He was only two years older than me, and even though we had met in Los Angeles, hours away from my house. He lived right up the street from me, on the other end of my city.

He happened to be far more well-off than I was economically. His family had even owned a horse, and went on vacations quite often. When I was introduced to this life style, I felt out of place. It felt, wrong almost. Everything that I'd ever been taught was wrong. You do not have to fear what you say. You do not have to remain silent when someone says something you don't agree with. You do not have to shroud in fear when someone comes at you with an open palm. Not all alcohol drinkers are abusive. You can actually buy things that weren't on clearance. You can be treated like a princess.

The excessive amount of generosity hit me like a ton of bricks. At times, I realized that life was hitting too hard, and that I truly deserved this. The therapy issued to me after the suicide attempt was practically useless, and I refused to take medication. It was rocky when me and Alex first started going out, because things were still messed up on my end, regardless of how many times he could whisk me away. I still loved my ex-girlfriend, and to this day, I still do - but the people we became and were molded into after the events that followed, are the people we don't love. It wasn't only her fault. I had made several mistakes as well, and I admit fully to those blames, but when I came to recognize these things - I could fully focus on my relationship, which started to blossom further.

I began going on trips, Vegas, Lake Tahoe, San Diego, along with theme parks such as Universal Studios, and Disneyland. I felt as if I was receiving the family I was never given. I could rest easy without hearing the clashing of plates amongst the tile floor, or music blasting at it's full capacity. The memories will never fade, which is a sad truth, but the unforgettable life I hope to share with Alex, is the best medicine I could ever take.