Mates

Going Insane

Stiles POV

I don't know what's up with me ...
Ever since I saw the police take away my mate I've been depressed ...
I thought it was just questioning but they held Derek longer than expected .
I found out from my dad that they're going to arrest Derek and he's going to be in jail for 6 months .
6 long months without my mate .
When a wolf is separated from its mate for too long it will die of loneliness or commit suicide .
I didn't feel like the alpha of alphas right now .
I sat in my car and tapped my fingers against the steering wheel .
My eyes began to tear up knowing that this is all my fault .
I deserve to die .... Derek is paying time for a crime he didn't commit and I might be the reason me and him both die ...
I couldn't do anything about it .
I had thought about breaking him out but that would make him a suspect and prove that he's guilty .
They don't have real proof that he did it so that's why their keeping him for 6 months and he's the only suspect they have .
Even if I confess we're both going to die either way plus my dads name would be ruined .
I could imagine the headlines " Sherrifs son accused of murder ! Well what a shame to the Stilinski name ! " then my dads job would be ruined and he would hate me and kick me out just like the pack did 2 years ago .
By now I was crying my eyes out . I slammed my hand against the steering wheel . I got out of my car and fell onto my knees as I screamed hoping to block out all of the pain and guilt I was feeling .
I slowly began to stop crying as I looked up and saw a figure walking towards me .
I couldn't tell who it was at first because of the heavy rain but I smelled the person and it was Scott .
I got to my feet and stared at him knowing that he was probably thinking I was a wuss .
He looked me in the eyes and his emotions were mixed .
I smelled pity and forgiveness but also I could sense he was going to blame me for something .
He spoke up first .
" Stiles I know me showing up is a little bit of a shock to you but I couldn't help but notice that you were crying ..."
Were you stalking me ?
" no I wasn't stiles but I just wanted to know if you were the one who killed Araya ? "
How did yo- I saw you at the crime scene Scott . I saw you staring at Derek .
" yes I was there because I wanted to know who Derek had supposedly killed but I was eavesdropping and I heard all of the conversation "
" Did you or did you not kill Araya ? "
I did ... but I had too ! She was going to kill Derek !
Scott stared blankly at me
You believe me right Scott ? Look I know we're not on the best terms right now but you believe me right ? You were my bestfriend since we were 4 years old .
" I don't know if I believe you stiles ... I've heard all about your killings and how you were a ruthless wolf who killed for sport .."
Scott I'm not like that anymore ! I only was like that because my old pack forced me too ! I promise I wouldn't kill a person that was innocent !
Scott stared at me as he was trying to decide whether to trust me or not .
Please just tell me how I can fix this ! How do I get Derek out of Jail ? How do I fix our friendship ?
I can't necessarily trust you either Scott ! You kicked me out of the pack 2 years ago and a day ago you didn't seem to give a shit whether I was alive or not !
" Stiles I know ! And I'm sorry stiles okay ?! I've come to my senses and I feel extremely bad about that . Yes I know I was a shitty friend to you 2 years ago and I know you were mad at me for trying to attack Derek but I promise I've changed my mind about you . I want to be friends again ! "
He didn't trust me and I didn't trust him at this point .
I was about to answer when I heard something .
I listened in carefully .
" Help !"
I perked up my head as I recognized that plea for help .

That was my dad .

Me and Scott got into my jeep and drove to where my dad was .
I located him 8.5 miles away and I drove there at the fastest speed possible .
I first saw his cop car tilted on its side with a little bit of fire coming from the hood and I saw his body on the ground lying in a puddle of blood .
I almost crashed my jeep when I saw him . I stopped the car and me and Scott got out and ran towards my Dad .
He was still alive ! Scott took his pain as I called 911 .
I began to cry as I told my dad it was going to be okay but in reality I didn't know what was going to happen .
4 minutes later a ambulance came and put my dad on a stretcher as they wheeled him into the ambulance .
Me and Scott got on inside the ambulance and comforted my Dad .
I was crying so much at this point and Scott pulled me into a hug as he rubbed my back .
He was crying too and I cried onto his shoulder as I closed my eyes hoping when I opened them everything would be fine .
We got there and I watched as they wheeled him to the emergency room and me and Scott stayed in the lobby .
I rested my body on Scott's shoulder as I impatiently tapped my foot wanting answers . I fell asleep on Scott and when i woke up I saw a Doctor in front of me with a clipboard . I asked is he alright ? The Doctor nodded and said I could see him now . I walked with Scott to my Dads room .
A part of me didn't want to see my dads bruised body .
I don't know why but I felt like this was my fault .
I walked slowly towards his room , standing shoulder to shoulder with Scott .
I saw him there and sat on the chair next to his bed as I held his hand in my hands .
He was in a comma and they didn't know when he would wake up . I cried into my hands as Scott went to go tell him mom the news .
I wiped my face as i stared at the person who i had betrayed for 2 years even though he's done so much for me . He's the one who raised me and fed me by himself after my mom died . I knew I had hurt him and he was so happy when I came back and now that I'm back everything has been going bad ! My dad might be in a comma forever and Derek and me might die because of me !
I grabbed my dads hand and spoke to him .
You've got to wake up dad .....
I started remembering all of the times we've had together ...
When I was void stiles and he put handcuffs on me and threaded to shoot allisons dad when he wanted to shoot me . When my dad yelled at me in the hospital after he didn't understand lydias condition . When we told him about the supernatural stuff and when I was typing on my computer and he pulled me by the chair slowly . When he told me I was the reason my mom died and I was killing him too in front of everyone and I almost cried ... I knew he didn't mean that because he was drunk but I don't know what to think anymore .
Scott came back with his mom and she hugged me and I hugged her back . I saw her like a mom and I could tell she was glad I was back . She replaced my dads fluids with new ones and checked his vitals . His heart was still beating and he was still breathing and that was all that mattered . I really wished Derek was here so I could be held in his arms and he would understand how it felt .
I rested my head on my dads knee as I replayed images of his bloody body in my mind and I couldn't stop them from reappearing . I should of have been with my dad instead of in my car doing nothing ! Maybe he had been looking for me and if I had just came home ! I sniffled and wiped my tears .
I noticed Scott was in the lobby with the pack and he was telling them everything . Kira ,Lydia , Liam , Issac , Liam's friend , Malia , even Parrish was there .
I slumped back down in my chair as I felt all of the guilt . I eventually cried myself to sleep hoping tomorrow would be a better day .

The thing was ... I never woke up

I couldn't open my eyes ....

But I was conscious.....

I could think ......

I couldn't speak ......

Or move .....

All I saw was blackness ......

I didn't feel any emotion .....

Then it occurred to me .....

I don't think I'm going to wake up .....

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